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I've been trying to tell this story for
a long time.

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For a number of years.

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Seven years, I believe.

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Closer to ten.

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I've had the title.

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I've had some of the scenes a dozen
different times.

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different ways, different starts.

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The times that I've told it to friends
as something that I wanted to do, I've

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come home and tried to get it down, get
to work on it.

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But the characters, the...

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People ignored the damn story and talked
about whatever they darn well pleased

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and wouldn't have any part of what I
wanted them to say.

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I mean, they sat down to cough here,
some damn thing.

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The

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trouble

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was that I wanted not to be...

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The big deal.

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The hero.

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Because I wasn't her.

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No one was.

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How do I know who was? If it happened
this way or that, who knows?

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But dad.

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My dad.

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What do I know about him?

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I mean, if he's nothing but nothing,
then the fact that he comes

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off the short end of the stick shows
something.

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From that, you know there's more there.

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You know?

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Leave it.

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Do it.

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Straight. Get it down.

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Let it get down and let it tell itself
and mirror by what you couldn't say what

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was really there.

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Hugged me.

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Hugged me, by God.

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By God, you can't, no matter what
anybody, anywhere says.

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You can't separate a kid from his
father.

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Even after this long time.

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Even after this time.

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My God, he's so handsome.

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So good looking.

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So young.

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This white dude's suit.

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White dinner jacket.

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Sport jacket. White.

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But wool.

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The sun shining.

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And I said, Dad?

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Dad?

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Hello?

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Let me take it.

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I mean, what could I do?

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Shake his hand?

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But it was right.

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I felt it was right.

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Ronnie's different. Different kind of
woman. She lives.

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You'll love her.

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I was working in the garden.

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If it was staged.

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I mean, she knew Dad was coming to get
me. He called to see if the bus was on

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time. He said he'd waited only eight
minutes.

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Full of us. He said she never wronged.
She knew that I would be in at that

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time.

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So what do you do?

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You meet a kid, 17, just out of high
school, your stepson.

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You've never seen him before. What are
you going to be doing?

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Whatever it is, it's going to make some
kind of impression.

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You borrow a white sport coat to meet
the kid.

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And you put on a pair of those thick,
big white gloves with dirt from the

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ground dirt on them. Those white work
gloves with the blue elastic wrist. Big,

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thick things for men.

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And you're discovered in a garden hat.

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So that the California sun won't burn
you and so you won't frown.

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I was working in the garden, pruning.

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She hears the car drive into the
driveway.

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She hears the door slam.

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She turns.

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She comes across the backyard, smiling.

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I take off a glove and extend my soft
hand.

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Welcome, Alan.

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Welcome. Hello.

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I was working in the garden, pruning.
The roses and a handshake, and Dad looks

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on, beaming.

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Beaming.

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You'll love her. You'll love her.

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Blonde hair. She looks like Blondie in
the funnies, but you do love her.

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She's worried and planned.

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Do you smoke?

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Do you want a cigarette? And, of course,
you smoke, but you didn't know if you

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should, and... A beer?

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Yes. Hell, Carol drinks. And worse, I
think.

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Well, you don't have to go on binges. I
don't.

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No. Ronnie smokes, you know, sometimes.
About, eh, one a month.

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Oh, not that much, even.

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I have this incredible headache.

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I think it has something to do with the
altitude.

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How high are we?

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Geez, I don't know.

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Coming through the mountains, it was...
Do you want some coffee?

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Ronnie makes the best damn coffee in the
world.

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Good.

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What do I say?

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Because I didn't plan. I didn't have a
setting. It wasn't my house I was coming

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into. It would be mine, but I couldn't
sit at the breakfast nook and pull up

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the ashtray and serve coffee out of the
good cups like it was every day and lean

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against the stove and talk about work. I
could never gain weight, but God.

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When we were married. That first week I
put on weight.

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It's the air.

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You will, too.

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And she... Ronnie's a good cook, isn't
she?

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Which reminds me, are you hungry?

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The girls got out.

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We wanted them to, so we could meet and
get to know each other a little first.

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The boys are staying with Mildred.
They'll be asleep, I imagine, by the

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time she brings them home tonight.

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We told them they'd see you in the
morning.

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One more day won't matter.

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You'll be here a while.

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You'll love it here. I do. I do.

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I do.

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Carol, I want you to know, don't be
embarrassed. We have these two girls

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living here. You're wrong. I know.
They're wards of the state, Alan.

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They've had terrible lives. Just
terrible.

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Well, maybe I should... No, you don't
know.

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Penny's father left her. Her mother's
died.

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She's lived in one bad foster home after
another. But they're happy here.

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The woman says we have one of the best
homes in San Diego County.

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And they live here like it's their home.

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They really do. They've been here,
Penny, a year, Carol, a year and a half.

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It is their home, and we get along like
a family.

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You'll have Carol's room, and she can...
Carol's mother and father both died when

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she was too young to remember.

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She does, though.

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She said she doesn't.

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Penny's good.

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She gets along fine. But Carol... Let me

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talk to you man to man.

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Carol's a whore.

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She's promiscuous.

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She came here bragging how she slept
with six sailors in one night. Seven,

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but one more or less.

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She's got a boyfriend now. She's trying
to straighten out, but she was on pills,

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God knows what. Things I hadn't even
heard of. But she dates this guy

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regularly now. He's a darn nice guy.
You'll meet him.

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You have to think of her as... You have
to treat her like a sister.

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We can't have you, uh... Oh, no, I
won't.

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It's important.

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How can you afford to keep them? They
must cost a lot of money.

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Yeah. Well, the state sends us $60 a
month to where they're bored.

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It's not what they eat, even.

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But we make a home for them.

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Yeah.

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We were coming through New Mexico. The
air conditioner wasn't working.

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Of course, who needs it in Nebraska? But
by the time we got to El Centro, it was

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burning hot.

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That's your first stop in California is
El Centro.

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What do you do your first stop in
California? You buy a glass of orange

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juice, right?

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Never.

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Whatever you do, never buy orange juice
at the Greyhound bus station in El

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Centro, California. It was god-awful. It
was the worst. It was the worst single

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paper cup of orange juice I've ever had
in my life.

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It's not native to El Centro.

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Orange juice.

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Can't grow there.

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Gila monsters you could buy.

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Navajo blankets, moccasins, turquoise
earrings, Apache tears.

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You could buy there.

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That's it.

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Of course, even getting to El Centro is
a nightmare.

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I mean, you know California.

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You've seen the pictures. Palm trees,
sunsets, swimming pools, oceans,

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mountain springs. Your first five hours,
five and a half, you're treated to the

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world's most barren desolation.

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the mojave desert telephone poles are
stuck into big hunks of asphalt to hold

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them upright the asphalt is boiling and
you think this is california oh

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wow who does the pr on this place and it
was 105 degrees

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it's march i want you to know march and
it's 105.

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In Nebraska, it was 47, and it was a
warm day when I left. I know. I

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remember.

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She worked there.

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What I've heard about Ronnie is that Dad
met her and dated her. He was still

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married.

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Sometime during that time, he was still
married to Mother. As a private

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secretary to the attorney for the state.

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State's attorney. Same difference. And
maybe they came out here together.

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Maybe not.

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He said he'd send for us.

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Mother and me.

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He ran off. Out to here.

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Okay.

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She never blamed him.

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A wonderful man.

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And an interesting job.

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So you, uh, you do shorthand and all
that, then?

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Oh, yeah.

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I'd like to forget it.

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It's kind of like riding a bicycle. You
can't.

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They let the secretaries run the
country, I think.

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From my experience.

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Probably they do.

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I've got to get along.

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How come?

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Doug's on the night shift, so he has
days off.

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I can still get in half a day yet.

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Good. You've done her bitches.

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Yeah.

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Can't tell you how much I've wanted you
here.

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He has, Alan.

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I tried. I wrote once or twice. Your
mother, I don't know.

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She thought I was...

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He's trying to kidnap you or some damn
thing.

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She wouldn't let you come.

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He cried.

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It's the only time I've ever seen him.

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So bad I can't tell you.

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He said he had to go.

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He worked the night shift. He could get
in half a day yet.

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That it was great having me here,
finally.

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We dreamed about it.

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That's going to be your room.

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Good. The patio will go out here.

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You've seen the garden, the living room,
the TV.

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I wish it were in the cabinet.

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I can't stand a naked eye staring at me.

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We hardly ever watch it.

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Doug watches the fights and the ball
games in the afternoons.

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Can I can watch the games in the
afternoon?

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That's the darkroom over there.

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Well, I didn't know that I

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Want

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an award on that last year They can
actually with a red filter

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looking straight into the Sun it called
sunspot Sun here the reflection here the

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way this Sun hits the water.

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It's a bitch of a shot to make because
of the glare and the reflection.

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You have to know what you're doing.

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This is a professional enlarger. That's
as good as I make it.

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Doug went through a woodworking phase
about five years ago. So we have a table

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saw and a lathe and all of that.

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He'll build a patio this summer.

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Not by myself, I won't.

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Not now that I have some help, right?
I'd love to.

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So you developed your own film?

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Yep, developed, uh, print and large to
any size, all in the same room, whole

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work.

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You know, it's not difficult. It's, uh,
it's damn exacting everything.

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Mount Helix with a cross.

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Mount Ote.

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Isn't that god-awful?

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Over there nearly in Mexico.

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Where are they all?

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Jerry's 12 and he's a little me.

253
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Only fatter, a little.

254
00:15:08,210 --> 00:15:09,870
Jack, uh, uh...

255
00:15:10,250 --> 00:15:16,470
brush ape uh renegade jerry and i look a
little alike jack takes after ronnie

256
00:15:16,470 --> 00:15:23,330
except for the eyes penny is a dope
she's great she's a dope

257
00:15:23,330 --> 00:15:30,250
carol is gorgeous i want you to get down
there you can

258
00:15:30,250 --> 00:15:34,980
get a job you're going to be going to
school it costs you know Well, I wanted

259
00:15:34,980 --> 00:15:37,820
to work and pay my wage. Wish to God we
could, Alan. I'm bored to pay your wage.

260
00:15:37,820 --> 00:15:40,460
We can't. We just can't. We'll help,
sure, all we can.

261
00:15:40,820 --> 00:15:42,320
No. I wanted to.

262
00:15:43,000 --> 00:15:44,000
I said I would.

263
00:15:44,660 --> 00:15:45,599
Hell, it's healthy.

264
00:15:45,600 --> 00:15:47,780
All the kids out of state work part-time
anyway.

265
00:15:48,020 --> 00:15:49,020
Earn their keep.

266
00:15:51,000 --> 00:15:52,000
Shit.

267
00:15:55,740 --> 00:15:57,140
We'll have to get you a car, won't we?

268
00:15:58,040 --> 00:15:59,040
You drive?

269
00:15:59,540 --> 00:16:02,280
Yeah, fairly well. Get you a little
Austin or one of those. What do you

270
00:16:02,280 --> 00:16:03,790
think? What can I say?

271
00:16:04,270 --> 00:16:05,830
I think it's great. Well, go out and
look.

272
00:16:06,230 --> 00:16:08,450
You've got to have a car to get you to
school, don't you? I ain't going to

273
00:16:08,450 --> 00:16:11,170
drive you in and squire you in. Hell,
you don't want to have to take a bus

274
00:16:11,170 --> 00:16:12,170
every morning, huh?

275
00:16:15,370 --> 00:16:16,370
There'll be a scene soon.

276
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Those who are confused will say, thank
God, something to watch. Maybe everybody

277
00:16:20,850 --> 00:16:22,550
will stop flying around.

278
00:16:26,390 --> 00:16:28,190
Guess you're going to want to get some
sleep soon.

279
00:16:29,370 --> 00:16:31,410
Before too long. I couldn't sleep on the
bus.

280
00:16:31,950 --> 00:16:32,950
Almost broke my neck.

281
00:16:33,910 --> 00:16:35,030
You want to go right now?

282
00:16:35,250 --> 00:16:36,890
No. Whenever you're ready.

283
00:16:37,790 --> 00:16:39,110
Can I have another cup of coffee?

284
00:16:40,870 --> 00:16:44,810
He's talked about you so much.

285
00:16:48,230 --> 00:16:50,410
I didn't know about you when we were
first married.

286
00:16:52,830 --> 00:16:58,630
He told me the first night was quite a
shock.

287
00:17:02,220 --> 00:17:03,680
I didn't even know we'd been married.

288
00:17:04,400 --> 00:17:05,400
He cried.

289
00:17:07,420 --> 00:17:13,220
He wanted to bring you out here, and I
wanted you, too. But your mother... She

290
00:17:13,220 --> 00:17:15,500
was right, don't you think?

291
00:17:16,839 --> 00:17:17,839
Yes.

292
00:17:18,680 --> 00:17:19,700
It's better this way.

293
00:17:20,300 --> 00:17:23,200
You're not torn apart, half in one
place, half in another.

294
00:17:25,640 --> 00:17:26,920
He missed you so much.

295
00:17:28,940 --> 00:17:30,820
That's why he wanted another kid right
away.

296
00:17:35,340 --> 00:17:37,320
You're not shocked or embarrassed by
talking to you frankly.

297
00:17:37,660 --> 00:17:38,660
No.

298
00:17:39,020 --> 00:17:40,020
No, God, no.

299
00:17:40,960 --> 00:17:41,960
It's a relief.

300
00:17:43,280 --> 00:17:45,760
Jack has a birthday party coming up. His
eighth.

301
00:17:46,640 --> 00:17:48,300
Two dozen local hellions.

302
00:17:48,780 --> 00:17:50,500
You'll want to escape from that, I
imagine.

303
00:17:51,160 --> 00:17:53,240
Maybe you and Jerry could go to the
movies or something.

304
00:17:53,480 --> 00:17:56,380
He considers himself far too adult for
that crowd.

305
00:17:56,760 --> 00:17:57,760
Of course, he's 11.

306
00:17:57,940 --> 00:17:58,940
No, please.

307
00:17:59,000 --> 00:18:00,200
12 and a half.

308
00:18:00,760 --> 00:18:01,940
He stretches it a bit.

309
00:18:02,820 --> 00:18:04,620
He was born on Christmas Day.

310
00:18:06,030 --> 00:18:06,949
You knew that?

311
00:18:06,950 --> 00:18:08,610
Yeah, but that's all.

312
00:18:17,650 --> 00:18:20,510
I'd met them just once, years ago.

313
00:18:21,190 --> 00:18:24,330
Jack was four, Jerry seven.

314
00:18:24,550 --> 00:18:30,370
Dad and the kids came to town, and it
was arranged that if a friend of my

315
00:18:30,370 --> 00:18:34,230
mother's came along, we'd all go to the
zoo in Omaha.

316
00:18:35,590 --> 00:18:40,130
And for a picnic, which I remember as
the most horrible experience of my

317
00:18:40,130 --> 00:18:41,130
younger life.

318
00:18:41,890 --> 00:18:48,230
Me not knowing what was happening and
everyone worried about how I was going

319
00:18:48,230 --> 00:18:52,710
to react and just knowing that I didn't
want any of it.

320
00:18:53,370 --> 00:18:56,530
And I couldn't get it through my head
how any of these people could be related

321
00:18:56,530 --> 00:18:57,530
to me.

322
00:18:58,250 --> 00:19:02,310
And I was freezing to death, which is
all I really remember.

323
00:19:02,950 --> 00:19:04,450
It was November and the animals.

324
00:19:04,860 --> 00:19:06,460
I had their winter coats and were ugly
anyway.

325
00:19:08,240 --> 00:19:09,240
Do you want to see him?

326
00:19:14,060 --> 00:19:14,919
Don't wake them.

327
00:19:14,920 --> 00:19:16,660
No, you'll meet him in the morning.

328
00:19:26,000 --> 00:19:27,000
That's Jerry.

329
00:19:27,600 --> 00:19:29,860
He has asthma and he snores like a tank.

330
00:19:30,660 --> 00:19:32,700
Of course, Jack could sleep through
anything.

331
00:19:35,370 --> 00:19:37,710
Well, of course he's cute. He looks like
me.

332
00:19:39,210 --> 00:19:41,330
He's the hairy one. He takes that from
my brother.

333
00:19:41,830 --> 00:19:43,210
Just look at those arms.

334
00:19:43,470 --> 00:19:45,810
He has hair all over him. Blonde.

335
00:19:46,070 --> 00:19:48,930
Like a white, little white orangutan or
something.

336
00:20:11,110 --> 00:20:13,910
Penny. On whom the plot will pivot, such
as it is.

337
00:20:24,910 --> 00:20:25,910
Pleased to meet you.

338
00:20:26,030 --> 00:20:28,130
I have heard a lot about you.

339
00:20:28,530 --> 00:20:29,690
And I feel like I should bow.

340
00:20:31,030 --> 00:20:33,150
They didn't know anything. It was all
conjecture.

341
00:20:35,310 --> 00:20:40,730
Penn is a science major and very serious
about it. Well, I'm not that serious

342
00:20:40,730 --> 00:20:41,669
about it.

343
00:20:41,670 --> 00:20:45,590
What do you want to do with it? Well,
I'll probably teach.

344
00:20:46,490 --> 00:20:47,870
I like kids, I guess.

345
00:20:48,590 --> 00:20:50,670
I couldn't teach if they paid me. I
understand they don't.

346
00:20:52,590 --> 00:20:54,650
California's not bad. They pay well
here.

347
00:20:54,990 --> 00:20:55,990
I guess I've heard that.

348
00:20:56,210 --> 00:20:57,390
Do you want something to eat?

349
00:20:57,990 --> 00:20:58,990
No.

350
00:21:00,470 --> 00:21:04,170
I gotta go to bed. Did you see Rose?

351
00:21:05,170 --> 00:21:07,810
Uh, mm-hmm. She's giving up politics.

352
00:21:08,010 --> 00:21:09,650
She's learning to play the guitar.

353
00:21:14,730 --> 00:21:17,270
Penny Date's the best-looking boy in the
college.

354
00:21:19,230 --> 00:21:20,810
He really is.

355
00:21:22,030 --> 00:21:23,130
He's a tennis pro.

356
00:21:23,450 --> 00:21:24,750
Well, he's not a pro.

357
00:21:25,310 --> 00:21:27,690
Well, not pro, but he will be.

358
00:21:28,270 --> 00:21:30,570
He was in the Olympics.

359
00:21:31,690 --> 00:21:32,930
They play tennis in the Olympics?

360
00:21:33,450 --> 00:21:34,450
Oh, sure.

361
00:21:34,650 --> 00:21:40,130
Or maybe it was skiing because he skis.
His dad has got a lodge out in Colorado.

362
00:21:42,150 --> 00:21:43,210
Carol and I.

363
00:21:43,590 --> 00:21:44,590
Carol and me.

364
00:21:45,530 --> 00:21:46,530
Oh, damn.

365
00:21:47,590 --> 00:21:50,550
Carol and I are both going with
millionaires.

366
00:21:51,310 --> 00:21:53,970
Well, not really, but they have a lot of
money.

367
00:21:55,510 --> 00:21:57,750
Phil drives a Pontiac convertible.

368
00:21:58,930 --> 00:22:02,090
It is so beautiful. I feel super driving
around in it.

369
00:22:02,570 --> 00:22:03,890
Especially the way that he drives.

370
00:22:04,630 --> 00:22:06,250
Why? How does he drive?

371
00:22:06,630 --> 00:22:09,150
I don't know.

372
00:22:12,170 --> 00:22:13,170
Conspicuously.

373
00:22:13,690 --> 00:22:16,670
I mean, the top is never up unless it's
raining.

374
00:22:18,130 --> 00:22:20,150
I've had a cold since I've known him.

375
00:22:22,350 --> 00:22:24,390
Do you mind if I go on to bed?

376
00:22:26,230 --> 00:22:28,990
No. No, if you're sleepy. Because I am.

377
00:22:29,610 --> 00:22:30,670
I could talk to you tomorrow.

378
00:22:31,410 --> 00:22:32,410
Okay.

379
00:22:34,199 --> 00:22:40,060
Um, Ronnie, is, um, Carol in yet? No.
God knows. She's out with Sonny.

380
00:22:41,860 --> 00:22:43,280
Oh, good night.

381
00:22:49,980 --> 00:22:56,080
And that's all of Penny that night. That
first night. That's it. But more.

382
00:22:56,680 --> 00:22:57,680
There's more.

383
00:23:03,850 --> 00:23:05,230
I want to tell you about Carol.

384
00:23:06,570 --> 00:23:09,390
I sat there sober-faced and believed
every word.

385
00:23:09,650 --> 00:23:11,150
Well, I had to tell him something,
right?

386
00:23:11,490 --> 00:23:14,210
I mean, the girl was a whore, let's face
it.

387
00:23:17,830 --> 00:23:18,830
Trichinosis.

388
00:23:20,230 --> 00:23:23,010
Well, I couldn't think of a medical
sounding name I could remember.

389
00:23:24,050 --> 00:23:25,050
When did you know?

390
00:23:25,250 --> 00:23:27,650
Not for years. You can lie to me, I'll
believe anything.

391
00:23:28,650 --> 00:23:30,610
Of course, I didn't know if he'd buy it
or not.

392
00:23:30,910 --> 00:23:31,910
I said...

393
00:23:32,060 --> 00:23:33,880
Trichinosis is something you get from
eating pork.

394
00:23:34,900 --> 00:23:36,240
Well, one kind.

395
00:23:37,360 --> 00:23:39,940
Similar, but much worse.

396
00:23:40,360 --> 00:23:41,540
And very rare.

397
00:23:42,160 --> 00:23:45,200
And I thought with all those sailors, he
might believe she'd gotten anything.

398
00:23:46,100 --> 00:23:47,760
And it doesn't show up on the boy.

399
00:23:48,480 --> 00:23:49,640
But he passes.

400
00:23:49,940 --> 00:23:50,940
He's a carrier.

401
00:23:51,060 --> 00:23:52,060
Right.

402
00:23:52,100 --> 00:23:57,180
And he passes it on to the next girl,
who might be someone he likes very much,

403
00:23:57,260 --> 00:23:59,760
Alan, and respects. And I bought that.

404
00:24:00,460 --> 00:24:04,040
I've got this. Smile plastered on my
kitchen and this look of concern. I

405
00:24:04,040 --> 00:24:06,940
didn't care if this girl had last-day
syphilis. I was dying there in the

406
00:24:06,940 --> 00:24:08,200
middle of the kitchen my first night.

407
00:24:08,600 --> 00:24:12,600
Anyway, I made Carol sound like a very
unattractive sleeping arrangement.

408
00:24:14,500 --> 00:24:15,800
Doug used to talk about you.

409
00:24:16,880 --> 00:24:17,880
I was only five.

410
00:24:18,120 --> 00:24:20,180
I know, but he loves children.

411
00:24:22,140 --> 00:24:24,640
I think Doug should have had a girl.

412
00:24:25,180 --> 00:24:26,840
He would have been a better father to
her.

413
00:24:27,680 --> 00:24:29,180
You should see him with the neighbor
girls.

414
00:24:29,820 --> 00:24:30,960
He really loved them.

415
00:24:32,100 --> 00:24:33,540
I didn't tell her that I had a sister.

416
00:24:34,500 --> 00:24:37,760
I thought about it, but I didn't say
anything.

417
00:24:38,160 --> 00:24:39,900
That's what I was thinking about a lot
that first night.

418
00:24:42,360 --> 00:24:45,420
I had a sister who was born dead. It
would have been Dad's only daughter.

419
00:24:46,380 --> 00:24:51,240
He was out every night until God knows
what hour, and he'd come in with

420
00:24:51,240 --> 00:24:54,180
lipstick all over his shirt.

421
00:24:56,060 --> 00:24:57,060
Mother was pregnant.

422
00:24:58,760 --> 00:25:01,940
And he'd swear that it was somebody's
sister, and she'd check out his story,

423
00:25:02,080 --> 00:25:03,320
and the guy wouldn't even have a sister.

424
00:25:03,540 --> 00:25:05,820
It's like he didn't even bother to make
the story convincing.

425
00:25:06,540 --> 00:25:10,860
And then he would rage at her for not
believing him and for spying behind his

426
00:25:10,860 --> 00:25:11,860
back.

427
00:25:12,280 --> 00:25:16,540
That's what he meant by at him all the
time, snooping at his heels.

428
00:25:17,960 --> 00:25:20,400
So Mother got her labor pains one night
while Dad was out.

429
00:25:21,920 --> 00:25:25,940
And this was eight months along only.

430
00:25:27,980 --> 00:25:31,500
So she called a friend of dad's to see
if he knew where dad was. This guy's

431
00:25:31,500 --> 00:25:34,520
name was Carl. So Carl and his wife
drove him out of the hospital.

432
00:25:34,820 --> 00:25:36,120
And the baby was born dead.

433
00:25:36,660 --> 00:25:37,660
Stillborn.

434
00:25:39,040 --> 00:25:42,400
She said that she didn't much care at
the time.

435
00:25:44,340 --> 00:25:47,480
It wasn't even buried. They don't
consider that it ever lived.

436
00:25:48,520 --> 00:25:49,520
I don't know.

437
00:25:51,740 --> 00:25:52,740
I do know that...

438
00:25:53,100 --> 00:25:57,080
that Carl beat the shit out of Dad, and
after that he left, so that if you

439
00:25:57,080 --> 00:26:03,580
thought that he was guilty about leaving
me or wanted another son, probably not.

440
00:26:04,320 --> 00:26:05,740
He wasn't going with me.

441
00:26:06,180 --> 00:26:07,720
Well, even if he was, you didn't know.

442
00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:10,800
It was a full year after that. Yeah,
we'd been in California a year.

443
00:26:11,060 --> 00:26:16,560
He'd met Ronnie, came back afterwards,
and that's when they went together.

444
00:26:18,040 --> 00:26:20,340
A year after he'd left.

445
00:26:23,440 --> 00:26:24,440
She said.

446
00:26:26,460 --> 00:26:27,460
I didn't ask Dad.

447
00:26:27,840 --> 00:26:28,840
It doesn't matter.

448
00:26:29,740 --> 00:26:33,980
Anyway, that's what I was thinking about
a lot that first night, or trying not to

449
00:26:33,980 --> 00:26:34,980
think about.

450
00:26:36,760 --> 00:26:39,240
And, you know, trying not to blame him.

451
00:26:42,180 --> 00:26:45,640
She would have been four years younger
than me.

452
00:26:47,100 --> 00:26:48,100
Thirteen.

453
00:26:57,520 --> 00:26:59,320
What time is it? It's after two.

454
00:26:59,680 --> 00:27:00,680
I'm falling on my face.

455
00:27:01,520 --> 00:27:03,060
Go on to bed. It's all right.

456
00:27:04,680 --> 00:27:06,280
Are you going to wait up for Dad?

457
00:27:06,600 --> 00:27:08,620
No, no. He doesn't expect you to wait
up.

458
00:27:11,040 --> 00:27:12,980
You won't need more covers than that.
Not here.

459
00:27:16,040 --> 00:27:17,040
Good night, Alan.

460
00:27:17,920 --> 00:27:19,340
I'll see you tomorrow.

461
00:27:21,040 --> 00:27:22,080
I won't wake him.

462
00:27:22,700 --> 00:27:25,700
Doug gets up early. He never sleeps more
than four or five hours.

463
00:27:27,310 --> 00:27:28,310
Good Lord.

464
00:27:29,170 --> 00:27:30,890
Don't worry. We'll let you sleep.

465
00:27:31,870 --> 00:27:33,490
Everyone keeps their own hours.

466
00:27:33,770 --> 00:27:36,870
Speaking of which...

467
00:27:36,870 --> 00:27:54,610
I

468
00:27:54,610 --> 00:27:56,610
know it's late. I wasn't watching.

469
00:28:01,390 --> 00:28:02,390
Where's Alan?

470
00:28:02,570 --> 00:28:03,570
Did he come?

471
00:28:03,630 --> 00:28:04,630
Yes, he came.

472
00:28:04,950 --> 00:28:05,950
Doug here?

473
00:28:06,170 --> 00:28:07,170
He went on to work.

474
00:28:07,830 --> 00:28:08,830
Went to work?

475
00:28:09,250 --> 00:28:10,490
I have a vivid imagination.

476
00:28:11,110 --> 00:28:14,930
But it fails me when I try to conjure up
what you do out there until... Oh,

477
00:28:14,950 --> 00:28:16,190
Ronnie, would you stop it?

478
00:28:17,390 --> 00:28:20,090
Just stop it already. No, he doesn't lay
me.

479
00:28:21,170 --> 00:28:25,010
No, never. Not once. Will you look at my
hands? For God's sake, do you think I

480
00:28:25,010 --> 00:28:26,010
can stand it?

481
00:28:31,140 --> 00:28:32,140
Carol's problem.

482
00:28:35,040 --> 00:28:36,580
Never thought she could cut it.

483
00:28:39,560 --> 00:28:44,980
And I am very much in love with a rich
Texas Catholic.

484
00:28:46,180 --> 00:28:47,280
And he has land.

485
00:28:47,620 --> 00:28:48,800
Lots of land.

486
00:28:50,460 --> 00:28:52,620
Principles that I never even knew were
principles.

487
00:28:53,940 --> 00:28:58,180
And I used to take downs, but pills are
wrong, of course, so I promised him that

488
00:28:58,180 --> 00:28:59,180
I wouldn't take them anymore.

489
00:28:59,760 --> 00:29:00,760
Right.

490
00:29:01,000 --> 00:29:04,000
And he makes out so damn beautifully.

491
00:29:05,400 --> 00:29:08,880
And I can't come down with pills, so I
claw my hands, the palms of my hands

492
00:29:08,880 --> 00:29:09,880
apart.

493
00:29:12,800 --> 00:29:13,800
Shit, Carol.

494
00:29:14,660 --> 00:29:16,440
Maybe he's been starting a war about it.

495
00:29:18,640 --> 00:29:20,100
I cut them off yesterday.

496
00:29:21,700 --> 00:29:25,640
I'll cut them even more tonight, but
that won't help, because I'll bite my

497
00:29:25,640 --> 00:29:30,200
lip or something. Carol, I can't get a
hold of... I'm very lenient.

498
00:29:31,420 --> 00:29:34,720
And I know you can wrap me around your
little finger.

499
00:29:36,520 --> 00:29:38,660
I know you had to do that in order to
get anything.

500
00:29:38,880 --> 00:29:42,880
Don't make excuses for me. For God's...
Carol, I want to say something.

501
00:29:44,640 --> 00:29:47,620
I know you want to stay here for the
next eight or whatever months till

502
00:29:47,620 --> 00:29:48,880
you're 18, and I want you to.

503
00:29:51,180 --> 00:29:55,620
But if I see one pill, one of your
tranquilizers, I'll report it.

504
00:29:56,760 --> 00:29:59,540
It's something I can't tolerate. I've
got two young sons here.

505
00:30:00,120 --> 00:30:03,360
I can't risk him taking something by
mistake. You don't have to tell me that.

506
00:30:05,220 --> 00:30:09,000
You think Sonny would stand for it? He's
a lot better police dog than you,

507
00:30:09,100 --> 00:30:11,960
believe me. Now, if I know that you're
taking him, I'll feel obliged to tell

508
00:30:11,960 --> 00:30:15,340
Sonny as well as the welfare team. You
don't have to tell anybody any goddamn

509
00:30:15,340 --> 00:30:17,900
thing. Because I promised him.

510
00:30:19,780 --> 00:30:22,160
You know what that means? That I didn't
need them.

511
00:30:25,940 --> 00:30:27,020
Do your hands hurt?

512
00:30:27,500 --> 00:30:30,480
Yes, they're like... Fire. Let me put
something on. I'll do it.

513
00:30:31,240 --> 00:30:33,040
You're supposed to be bawling me out.

514
00:30:34,820 --> 00:30:35,820
You can't, Ronnie.

515
00:30:37,080 --> 00:30:39,140
I can get out of anything. I'm a master.

516
00:30:39,420 --> 00:30:40,500
You're also a myth.

517
00:30:40,780 --> 00:30:41,780
You're telling me.

518
00:30:41,820 --> 00:30:43,300
Let me put something on. No.

519
00:30:43,500 --> 00:30:45,040
You haven't seen me up with iodine, have
you?

520
00:30:45,920 --> 00:30:47,520
It's salve, not iodine.

521
00:30:47,820 --> 00:30:48,820
I'll do it.

522
00:30:50,740 --> 00:30:52,180
You're not that bad, are you?

523
00:30:58,220 --> 00:30:59,220
You waiting up for Doug?

524
00:30:59,840 --> 00:31:00,840
No, he'll be in.

525
00:31:02,400 --> 00:31:03,400
Alan's in my room?

526
00:31:03,520 --> 00:31:04,940
For tonight. We'll arrange something.

527
00:31:08,060 --> 00:31:09,300
Let me flop somewhere.

528
00:31:10,580 --> 00:31:11,840
Put something on your hands.

529
00:31:12,640 --> 00:31:13,599
That's sad.

530
00:31:13,600 --> 00:31:14,600
I will.

531
00:31:17,100 --> 00:31:17,959
Good night.

532
00:31:17,960 --> 00:31:18,960
Carol.

533
00:31:27,020 --> 00:31:28,020
Don't stay out so late.

534
00:31:31,140 --> 00:31:32,680
They want you in by 12.

535
00:31:35,340 --> 00:31:36,520
I won't, Ronnie.

536
00:31:39,100 --> 00:31:40,100
You're great.

537
00:31:42,200 --> 00:31:43,660
I'm sorry, I won't.

538
00:31:46,840 --> 00:31:47,840
Good night.

539
00:31:53,660 --> 00:31:54,660
She will.

540
00:31:55,080 --> 00:31:56,340
And I don't blame her.

541
00:31:57,100 --> 00:31:58,580
He's all she's got, Sonny.

542
00:31:59,820 --> 00:32:04,600
She's on probation with the state and us
and Sonny, too.

543
00:33:23,050 --> 00:33:24,009
Are you awake?

544
00:33:24,010 --> 00:33:26,730
Huh? Good morning.

545
00:33:30,130 --> 00:33:31,130
Morning?

546
00:33:31,610 --> 00:33:32,610
Is it morning?

547
00:33:32,830 --> 00:33:33,830
Almost.

548
00:33:36,250 --> 00:33:37,710
You always get up this early?

549
00:33:38,630 --> 00:33:39,630
I woke up.

550
00:33:41,310 --> 00:33:42,890
It isn't daylight yet, is it?

551
00:33:43,290 --> 00:33:44,610
No. Sunday.

552
00:33:44,870 --> 00:33:46,090
It's real bright out.

553
00:33:46,290 --> 00:33:49,590
Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no. It's okay.
It's okay. I believe you.

554
00:33:56,460 --> 00:33:57,520
Are you Jerry or Jack?

555
00:33:58,040 --> 00:33:59,040
Jack's asleep.

556
00:34:00,180 --> 00:34:04,440
And you would be 12 and a half, right?

557
00:34:04,880 --> 00:34:07,140
Right. I'll be 13. Christmas Day.

558
00:34:07,360 --> 00:34:08,359
All right.

559
00:34:09,840 --> 00:34:11,139
What's the matter with your head?

560
00:34:11,639 --> 00:34:14,340
I think it has something to do with the
altitude.

561
00:34:15,580 --> 00:34:16,639
Are we at sea level?

562
00:34:17,100 --> 00:34:20,100
No. 1,380 feet.

563
00:34:20,300 --> 00:34:21,300
That's Mount Helix.

564
00:34:23,620 --> 00:34:24,659
How do you know that?

565
00:34:25,239 --> 00:34:26,239
Study geography?

566
00:34:26,320 --> 00:34:27,760
No, there's a sign on the highway.

567
00:34:28,320 --> 00:34:29,320
Oh.

568
00:34:31,120 --> 00:34:32,880
You want some aspirin? Where's the
highway?

569
00:34:33,620 --> 00:34:36,300
About two blocks from here. You have
any, you think?

570
00:34:38,120 --> 00:34:39,120
What?

571
00:34:39,380 --> 00:34:40,380
Aspirin.

572
00:34:40,620 --> 00:34:42,980
Oh, I thought you meant, did I have any
highways?

573
00:34:44,000 --> 00:34:45,239
Yeah, sure, I'll get you one.

574
00:34:46,239 --> 00:34:48,340
Could you bring me three if you have
plenty?

575
00:34:48,960 --> 00:34:50,699
Well, you shouldn't take more than one.

576
00:34:51,340 --> 00:34:52,340
Oh, no, no, no.

577
00:34:52,420 --> 00:34:54,020
That's okay, honey. I always take three.

578
00:34:54,600 --> 00:34:56,800
Two doesn't do me any good, and four
makes me sick.

579
00:35:01,220 --> 00:35:02,780
Jerry, what time is it?

580
00:35:03,000 --> 00:35:04,100
Seven o'clock already.

581
00:35:04,420 --> 00:35:05,420
Oh, God.

582
00:35:07,360 --> 00:35:10,080
I didn't get to bed till three or
something.

583
00:35:10,460 --> 00:35:12,820
Do adults need eight hours sleep?

584
00:35:13,060 --> 00:35:14,060
Eight or ten.

585
00:35:15,040 --> 00:35:17,680
You know, I like you.

586
00:35:18,760 --> 00:35:20,280
I didn't know if I would or not.

587
00:35:21,180 --> 00:35:22,178
But I do.

588
00:35:22,180 --> 00:35:23,180
You're nice.

589
00:35:24,430 --> 00:35:26,990
How come you didn't come to live with us
a long time ago?

590
00:35:27,890 --> 00:35:28,890
I like you, too.

591
00:35:32,330 --> 00:35:33,330
Gary?

592
00:35:40,850 --> 00:35:42,810
So I didn't sleep, I guess.

593
00:35:43,630 --> 00:35:47,730
Not much that first night. And the last
thing that I wanted to do... You make

594
00:35:47,730 --> 00:35:49,950
your application and take about ten
minutes time.

595
00:35:50,330 --> 00:35:52,910
Then we'll drive over and take a peek at
that ocean you haven't seen.

596
00:35:56,080 --> 00:35:59,940
The personnel manager at Ryan
Aeronautical hated me on sight.

597
00:36:00,780 --> 00:36:02,080
With no love lost.

598
00:36:02,920 --> 00:36:04,120
Do we have to go today?

599
00:36:06,740 --> 00:36:07,980
I can hardly see.

600
00:36:09,380 --> 00:36:11,000
Well, he's going on a month's vacation.

601
00:36:11,380 --> 00:36:15,420
Tomorrow. I can process you while he's
gone. You won't start working for a

602
00:36:15,420 --> 00:36:17,160
month. Buy now, pay later.

603
00:36:17,420 --> 00:36:21,420
Well, maybe I... Maybe I could do
something else. I don't know.

604
00:36:22,760 --> 00:36:23,900
Grocery clerk or something?

605
00:36:26,160 --> 00:36:28,940
Well, what do you want, boy? It's up to
you. You want to make enough money to go

606
00:36:28,940 --> 00:36:29,940
to school? Thanks, Penny.

607
00:36:30,200 --> 00:36:31,880
Or you want to go to the movies?

608
00:36:32,980 --> 00:36:36,280
I'll tell you what. We'll all go. We'll
go on to the beat later.

609
00:36:36,980 --> 00:36:40,680
It didn't take long.

610
00:36:41,640 --> 00:36:45,400
He said we had two divisions of
engineering personnel, temporary and

611
00:36:45,400 --> 00:36:47,660
full-time. I said I much prefer the
former.

612
00:36:47,900 --> 00:36:50,880
He said there was a greater possibility
of being hired in the latter.

613
00:36:51,380 --> 00:36:52,380
And that was that.

614
00:36:53,320 --> 00:36:54,320
So...

615
00:36:54,380 --> 00:36:57,080
Providing I'm not lying about having
never been a member of the Communist

616
00:36:57,080 --> 00:36:58,720
Party, I'll be set.

617
00:36:59,160 --> 00:37:00,580
I start in a month or so.

618
00:37:00,780 --> 00:37:02,120
As soon as he gets back.

619
00:37:02,320 --> 00:37:05,760
The Aeronautical Engineer Training
Center riveting truth.

620
00:37:07,420 --> 00:37:12,860
How can you manage full-time work and
full-time school?

621
00:37:13,260 --> 00:37:16,880
So he'll go part-time to school until he
can get on temporary at the plant.

622
00:37:18,260 --> 00:37:19,460
No, no.

623
00:37:20,100 --> 00:37:22,080
No, wait, wait. If you can work...

624
00:37:22,300 --> 00:37:23,660
Both full-time. Why not?

625
00:37:24,360 --> 00:37:27,780
If you're serious about working down
there, they got a scholarship program.

626
00:37:28,980 --> 00:37:32,580
You get yourself into, uh,
electrodynamics, something like that,

627
00:37:32,640 --> 00:37:35,440
they'll pay the bill all the way. But
I'm only in my second term. I don't know

628
00:37:35,440 --> 00:37:37,720
what I want. Well, don't be negative.
You're gonna give it a fair shake.

629
00:37:38,580 --> 00:37:41,680
All I'm saying, you know, objectively,
what's happening in the world today?

630
00:37:41,860 --> 00:37:43,120
Huh? Hmm?

631
00:37:43,780 --> 00:37:45,280
We're shooting rockets into space.

632
00:37:45,760 --> 00:37:49,280
We got the hydrogen bomb, the cobalt
bomb, atomic submarines.

633
00:37:50,760 --> 00:37:53,240
They're bouncing radio signals off Mars,
Venus.

634
00:37:55,860 --> 00:37:59,600
Physicists looking at the sunspots,
predicting the weather.

635
00:38:00,380 --> 00:38:04,300
Every field. What you need, Alan? I
don't know anything about it. Physics.

636
00:38:04,920 --> 00:38:05,920
Physics, by God.

637
00:38:06,840 --> 00:38:08,000
Sounds like a good book.

638
00:38:10,140 --> 00:38:15,880
Well, yeah, you can joke around about
it. It's just, all I'm saying is, if I

639
00:38:15,880 --> 00:38:19,200
was a kid today, it would take me three
minutes.

640
00:38:20,200 --> 00:38:21,980
Hell, three seconds make up my mind.

641
00:38:23,280 --> 00:38:24,280
Engineering.

642
00:38:25,040 --> 00:38:26,040
Electrodynamics.

643
00:38:26,340 --> 00:38:27,760
Just to have to open your eyes.

644
00:38:28,260 --> 00:38:29,260
Huh?

645
00:38:29,660 --> 00:38:31,400
And of course, the head is worse.

646
00:38:32,300 --> 00:38:33,800
But the ocean, hmm.

647
00:38:34,340 --> 00:38:36,940
I've lived 800 miles from it my whole
life.

648
00:38:37,960 --> 00:38:40,400
Hey, you, you nut. Get over here.

649
00:38:41,900 --> 00:38:44,060
This is the other one. This is Jack.

650
00:38:44,540 --> 00:38:45,720
Can you see his arms?

651
00:38:46,120 --> 00:38:49,700
They're all covered with white hair.
He's our little white orangutan.

652
00:38:52,259 --> 00:38:54,700
He's had straight A's since the day he
was born. Yeah.

653
00:38:55,560 --> 00:38:57,540
And he's a smart ass. I mean, Alec.

654
00:38:58,080 --> 00:38:59,080
Yeah. Yet.

655
00:38:59,200 --> 00:39:00,220
What's an Alec?

656
00:39:01,520 --> 00:39:03,520
I don't know, but you are one.

657
00:39:05,540 --> 00:39:08,480
Don't you wish you had a smart answer
for all those simple-minded, great

658
00:39:08,480 --> 00:39:11,980
questions that he asked? Like, an Alec
is a thingamajig without its

659
00:39:11,980 --> 00:39:16,560
whatchamacallit. And you're going to be
one if you keep asking... Jack, Jack.

660
00:39:18,080 --> 00:39:19,360
First Ocean, the Pacific.

661
00:39:20,009 --> 00:39:21,009
Real salt.

662
00:39:21,030 --> 00:39:23,310
I almost had to believe it. To taste it,
to be sure.

663
00:39:24,450 --> 00:39:27,370
Jerry on one side, Jack on the other, me
in the middle.

664
00:39:27,590 --> 00:39:30,030
A picture of the three grandchildren to
send to my grandmother.

665
00:39:31,350 --> 00:39:33,450
Doug's mother wrote back, said she
didn't believe it.

666
00:39:34,030 --> 00:39:36,070
That wasn't Alan between those two kids.

667
00:39:36,570 --> 00:39:38,730
That was Douglas when he was 17.

668
00:39:39,930 --> 00:39:43,370
How can you tell when to turn it off?

669
00:39:43,730 --> 00:39:45,010
You have to know what you want.

670
00:39:45,590 --> 00:39:47,450
The less you expose it, the lighter it
is.

671
00:39:47,920 --> 00:39:49,340
The more you're explosive, the darker.

672
00:39:50,660 --> 00:39:53,060
Just burn it in there.

673
00:39:54,240 --> 00:39:56,560
When did you take these? A couple of
months ago.

674
00:39:57,280 --> 00:39:58,880
You're just now getting around to
burning them up?

675
00:39:59,440 --> 00:40:00,980
Yeah, got no time.

676
00:40:03,400 --> 00:40:07,960
Look at that. Look at that. Look at
that. Don't crowd. Don't crowd me now.

677
00:40:08,060 --> 00:40:08,919
Don't crowd.

678
00:40:08,920 --> 00:40:10,020
Look at those boobs.

679
00:40:10,340 --> 00:40:15,900
She isn't the least bit overdoing it.
What do you talk with a butt like that?

680
00:40:17,310 --> 00:40:18,310
Can't miss that, can you?

681
00:40:19,170 --> 00:40:20,170
That's too much for you.

682
00:40:22,510 --> 00:40:23,890
Got a lot to get a hold on there.

683
00:40:29,930 --> 00:40:32,530
Doug's mother wrote and said that that
wasn't Alan.

684
00:40:33,230 --> 00:40:34,930
That was Doug when he was 17.

685
00:40:35,270 --> 00:40:36,390
I told you, what did I say?

686
00:40:37,030 --> 00:40:39,390
That was Douglas when he was 17.

687
00:40:39,730 --> 00:40:40,730
That's what I said.

688
00:40:41,530 --> 00:40:45,170
By God, you can't, no matter what
anybody anywhere says, you can't.

689
00:40:45,779 --> 00:40:50,900
Wait till we get you flying by in a
flashy M.G. M.G.? Horse, possum, one of

690
00:40:50,900 --> 00:40:52,020
those. Blue?

691
00:40:53,380 --> 00:40:55,760
Red, hell, red, man. What are you
talking?

692
00:40:57,040 --> 00:40:58,040
Compromise, purple.

693
00:40:58,620 --> 00:40:59,620
Huh?

694
00:40:59,840 --> 00:41:01,440
What do you think, Douglas?

695
00:41:03,180 --> 00:41:05,100
It's called a duck's tail.

696
00:41:09,560 --> 00:41:12,200
What the hell do you want a duck's ass
in the back of your head for?

697
00:41:13,900 --> 00:41:14,900
It's beautiful.

698
00:41:15,080 --> 00:41:16,080
It is.

699
00:41:16,500 --> 00:41:18,460
It's just what I've always wanted. A big
old family.

700
00:41:18,740 --> 00:41:19,860
It's great.

701
00:41:21,600 --> 00:41:22,880
I'm only a head.

702
00:41:23,660 --> 00:41:25,900
And you're whatever you are. Thought I'd
take the hair off?

703
00:41:27,960 --> 00:41:29,280
Together we're strong.

704
00:41:30,200 --> 00:41:35,400
More powerful than... What are they?

705
00:41:36,200 --> 00:41:38,140
Dope. Oh, yell it out, Penny.

706
00:41:38,480 --> 00:41:40,180
Get us all kicked out of here.

707
00:41:40,400 --> 00:41:41,680
Dope. Good God.

708
00:41:42,120 --> 00:41:43,760
Of course, we're immediately in a
conspiracy.

709
00:41:44,260 --> 00:41:48,940
You know the paint got little boys' bray
on little model airplanes? Yes, I know.

710
00:41:49,040 --> 00:41:52,340
Smells like ether. It could kill you if
you breathe. I said yes. Well, that's

711
00:41:52,340 --> 00:41:53,340
dope.

712
00:41:54,040 --> 00:41:55,040
Dope.

713
00:41:56,620 --> 00:42:03,120
There, a very innocent-sounding P-I-L-L
called Milleril.

714
00:42:04,940 --> 00:42:06,640
One of the seven wonder drugs.

715
00:42:07,800 --> 00:42:11,280
You're going to ask what it does? Well,
it does wonders.

716
00:42:13,670 --> 00:42:14,670
Are they strong?

717
00:42:16,290 --> 00:42:17,290
Stronger than I am.

718
00:42:21,890 --> 00:42:22,890
It's not gonna last.

719
00:42:24,810 --> 00:42:28,130
What do you want a duck's ass in the
back of your head for?

720
00:42:28,990 --> 00:42:32,650
You want it all swirled up around like
that? Makes you look like, I don't know

721
00:42:32,650 --> 00:42:36,410
what, some kind of a high school punk or
around... Penny's what's-it?

722
00:42:38,370 --> 00:42:39,370
You don't like it?

723
00:42:41,030 --> 00:42:43,400
Doug, you're... Queer. You can't get
around it.

724
00:42:43,780 --> 00:42:46,280
What are you talking about? It makes him
look like a front-door cowboy.

725
00:42:46,540 --> 00:42:47,540
Doug, you don't know your ass.

726
00:42:48,140 --> 00:42:49,400
Who are you telling about ass?

727
00:42:51,180 --> 00:42:53,740
Phil even wears his hair like that.

728
00:42:54,160 --> 00:42:55,240
Oh, Miss Innocence.

729
00:42:57,060 --> 00:43:00,160
Well, we just won't talk about the way
your boyfriends do anything.

730
00:43:01,880 --> 00:43:03,560
Dad combs his hair straight back.

731
00:43:04,000 --> 00:43:05,560
And that's since the day he was born.

732
00:43:06,200 --> 00:43:07,480
It's the only way to comb your hair.

733
00:43:10,460 --> 00:43:11,460
But wait.

734
00:43:12,140 --> 00:43:13,140
Let's go back.

735
00:43:13,720 --> 00:43:17,780
It's been just 24 hours, and the head is
still beating.

736
00:43:19,580 --> 00:43:21,020
And it's all going too fast.

737
00:43:22,560 --> 00:43:25,800
In six months, I'll be sleeping in a
park in Chicago with a letter in my

738
00:43:25,800 --> 00:43:28,040
pocket from Ronnie telling me that Carol
is dead.

739
00:43:30,760 --> 00:43:31,860
But who would know that now?

740
00:43:32,820 --> 00:43:34,660
We're sitting down to eat outside.

741
00:43:37,340 --> 00:43:39,340
California. No, it's not thunder.

742
00:43:40,600 --> 00:43:41,600
Feel it?

743
00:43:45,420 --> 00:43:46,420
No. Yes.

744
00:43:49,520 --> 00:43:52,280
Good God.

745
00:43:55,040 --> 00:43:59,500
You get used to it. It doesn't bother
the natives.

746
00:43:59,720 --> 00:44:02,500
If it thunders, they run out in the
street. They think the world is coming

747
00:44:02,500 --> 00:44:03,500
to an end.

748
00:44:03,660 --> 00:44:08,540
It feels like you felt it in the cities
when a big loaded lumbering diesel rolls

749
00:44:08,540 --> 00:44:11,180
by outside. Or if you live near the
subway.

750
00:44:11,800 --> 00:44:15,260
and the whole building, all the walls
and the chair you're sitting in, give a

751
00:44:15,260 --> 00:44:17,540
gentle, prolonged shudder.

752
00:44:17,920 --> 00:44:18,920
That's it.

753
00:44:19,260 --> 00:44:20,880
Only there's no truck going by.

754
00:44:21,260 --> 00:44:22,880
It just happens of its own accord.

755
00:44:26,320 --> 00:44:27,320
There.

756
00:44:34,020 --> 00:44:35,020
That's all.

757
00:44:39,940 --> 00:44:41,340
Same song, second verse.

758
00:44:41,630 --> 00:44:43,710
As the poet said, it couldn't be better,
but it's going to get worse.

759
00:44:44,710 --> 00:44:48,070
March, April, May, or June, or July, or
August.

760
00:44:51,450 --> 00:44:53,970
Everything goes well enough.

761
00:44:54,530 --> 00:44:55,530
But it's complicated.

762
00:44:56,050 --> 00:44:57,870
It's difficult to leave well enough
alone.

763
00:44:58,430 --> 00:45:02,410
Because well enough is an intolerable
state to be in. Take it from me.

764
00:45:03,250 --> 00:45:06,930
I'm home today for... Oh, wow.

765
00:45:07,290 --> 00:45:08,290
Home.

766
00:45:09,150 --> 00:45:10,450
And it is. It really is.

767
00:45:10,940 --> 00:45:13,780
For a short time, a very short time
longer.

768
00:45:14,660 --> 00:45:19,600
My last class is at three, usually, so I
can go straight to work from school.

769
00:45:20,460 --> 00:45:21,540
Today is Saturday.

770
00:45:22,220 --> 00:45:23,900
Work. No school.

771
00:45:24,720 --> 00:45:28,920
Work. So I can spend some time home
before we leave for work at five.

772
00:45:30,120 --> 00:45:31,600
Penny and Carol are on vacation.

773
00:45:32,580 --> 00:45:33,580
It's summer.

774
00:45:34,680 --> 00:45:37,020
Two momentous events have elapsed.

775
00:45:37,520 --> 00:45:40,880
Dad. Has developed an absolute passion
for milk.

776
00:45:41,480 --> 00:45:43,080
And he's teaching penny photography.

777
00:45:43,640 --> 00:45:45,680
Well, not photography.

778
00:45:45,960 --> 00:45:50,020
Isn't anything to learn except point and
snap.

779
00:45:51,420 --> 00:45:53,460
I'm learning developing and printing.

780
00:45:54,200 --> 00:45:55,200
You like it?

781
00:45:55,900 --> 00:45:57,560
Sure. Fascinating.

782
00:45:58,580 --> 00:46:02,340
I'm a little bit sick of seeing that
red, white, and blue bikini in every

783
00:46:02,340 --> 00:46:03,620
picture we print.

784
00:46:05,560 --> 00:46:09,300
Dad has this bikini that he takes along
to all his sessions with the girls. It's

785
00:46:09,300 --> 00:46:14,040
pathetic. An entire session is taken up
with, apparently, we only see the

786
00:46:14,040 --> 00:46:19,140
pictures, with first coaxing her into it
and then nearly out of it. And she

787
00:46:19,140 --> 00:46:22,600
unties it here or she pushes it down
there or else she doesn't, which is even

788
00:46:22,600 --> 00:46:25,120
funnier. It is awful.

789
00:46:25,580 --> 00:46:28,940
It's cotton and tacky and just ugly as
it can be.

790
00:46:30,380 --> 00:46:32,380
I'm surprised he hasn't got you posing
for him by now.

791
00:46:32,660 --> 00:46:33,660
Oh, honey.

792
00:46:34,170 --> 00:46:35,650
I'm on to that crap.

793
00:46:37,010 --> 00:46:41,870
He squires down those dames to the beach
in that stupid car.

794
00:46:42,290 --> 00:46:44,930
Chevy convertible. Nothing but big cars
in this play.

795
00:46:45,850 --> 00:46:47,690
He took a million pictures of me.

796
00:46:48,570 --> 00:46:49,730
I'm not photogenic.

797
00:46:50,730 --> 00:46:54,290
He didn't even notice it. It's all in
his head. He never notices.

798
00:46:55,530 --> 00:46:56,530
Slobbering around.

799
00:46:56,590 --> 00:46:58,010
You got nice eyes.

800
00:46:58,410 --> 00:46:59,790
You got nice legs.

801
00:47:00,130 --> 00:47:01,570
You got nice hips.

802
00:47:04,720 --> 00:47:05,840
Kid the creep.

803
00:47:07,020 --> 00:47:10,480
Probably he just wanted you to... He
wanted in my pants.

804
00:47:11,660 --> 00:47:13,100
It was humiliating.

805
00:47:14,020 --> 00:47:18,620
When a girl 17 has to tell a man 45 to
grow up, something's wrong.

806
00:47:19,380 --> 00:47:21,420
I just found it repellent and I told
him.

807
00:47:22,100 --> 00:47:23,140
Not in those words, I hope.

808
00:47:23,540 --> 00:47:24,760
Yes, in those words.

809
00:47:25,060 --> 00:47:26,940
Doug, grow up. You're repellent.

810
00:47:28,560 --> 00:47:29,560
Listen.

811
00:47:30,440 --> 00:47:33,740
Half the foster fathers I've had have
tried to make me since I was six.

812
00:47:34,570 --> 00:47:35,570
It's not my scene.

813
00:47:37,010 --> 00:47:38,110
Men are idiots.

814
00:47:39,990 --> 00:47:43,050
They knew what they looked like. They'd
all march into the scene in a line like

815
00:47:43,050 --> 00:47:44,050
Lemmings.

816
00:47:44,670 --> 00:47:47,090
It isn't Lemmings. It's Lemmings.

817
00:47:48,410 --> 00:47:49,410
You're terrific.

818
00:47:49,650 --> 00:47:51,470
I think you're my favorite sister.

819
00:47:52,870 --> 00:47:55,850
You can go to hell, too.

820
00:47:59,530 --> 00:48:00,930
I went to one outing with Dad.

821
00:48:01,740 --> 00:48:07,320
And I've got the 35mm Leica that Dad has
lent me, barely explaining how to use

822
00:48:07,320 --> 00:48:08,279
the damn thing.

823
00:48:08,280 --> 00:48:15,200
And all the guys are frisking around
this one gal. She's on a Mexican

824
00:48:15,200 --> 00:48:19,760
Serapi, and they're practically having
heart attacks. They're like, clickety,

825
00:48:19,800 --> 00:48:23,080
clickety, clickety, clickety, clickety,
clickety, clickety, clickety, clickety.

826
00:48:23,120 --> 00:48:27,400
All around like a plague of locusts.
They're all jockeying for the best

827
00:48:27,400 --> 00:48:30,760
position to shoot straight down her
breasts, which...

828
00:48:31,500 --> 00:48:38,240
are pumpkins and and and and and and
they're all giving her okay baby yeah

829
00:48:38,240 --> 00:48:45,060
uh-huh all right that's it that's it
honey yeah now let's see what's your

830
00:48:45,060 --> 00:48:51,100
lip okay now wet them again right now
now slack

831
00:48:51,100 --> 00:48:57,000
okay now now now toss your head now now
now now just let everything go to hell

832
00:48:57,000 --> 00:48:59,780
pouch indignant hate

833
00:49:02,680 --> 00:49:03,680
That's insane.

834
00:49:04,040 --> 00:49:06,320
Now just give us one big sexy kiss.

835
00:49:12,340 --> 00:49:15,340
I'm standing there with this dumb damn
Wicca going.

836
00:49:15,660 --> 00:49:18,160
Oh, I don't know. Could you maybe just
sort of smile?

837
00:49:19,060 --> 00:49:20,760
I know that whole scene.

838
00:49:22,160 --> 00:49:23,118
Hey, Alan.

839
00:49:23,120 --> 00:49:25,460
How come you didn't show up? What? Huh?
Where?

840
00:49:27,460 --> 00:49:28,860
This guy's beautiful, isn't he?

841
00:49:29,120 --> 00:49:30,120
Where?

842
00:49:30,600 --> 00:49:35,460
I mean, this wasn't important, but he'd
forget if it was.

843
00:49:37,120 --> 00:49:38,120
You should head on tight.

844
00:49:38,520 --> 00:49:41,960
We wouldn't want you losing that. Yeah,
I think so. What did I forget?

845
00:49:42,860 --> 00:49:44,380
Club meeting yesterday afternoon.

846
00:49:45,760 --> 00:49:48,800
Well, nothing happened. I mean, you can
go to them or not.

847
00:49:49,180 --> 00:49:50,180
Suit yourself.

848
00:49:50,280 --> 00:49:52,600
A few times I have gone. You couldn't
believe.

849
00:50:06,760 --> 00:50:08,020
Stanley tells me you're not coming to
work.

850
00:50:09,620 --> 00:50:12,920
Something like three days in the last
week you missed a while back. What was

851
00:50:12,920 --> 00:50:14,260
that? Three days?

852
00:50:14,680 --> 00:50:17,280
No. Maybe two once, but not three.

853
00:50:17,940 --> 00:50:21,820
Oh, what the hell's so important? The
days I don't drive you in, you're just

854
00:50:21,820 --> 00:50:23,020
not showing up?

855
00:50:23,420 --> 00:50:25,540
I have to squire you in? I have been.

856
00:50:26,620 --> 00:50:27,620
Kid's a good worker.

857
00:50:27,880 --> 00:50:29,020
Picks things up fast.

858
00:50:29,240 --> 00:50:33,140
But you can't just keep missing days. I
do more in three days than most of these

859
00:50:33,140 --> 00:50:34,140
guys do in three weeks.

860
00:50:34,340 --> 00:50:36,200
But they're getting five days pay in
your night.

861
00:50:36,490 --> 00:50:37,990
You should watch the shop store
sometime.

862
00:50:38,230 --> 00:50:39,029
Oh, wow.

863
00:50:39,030 --> 00:50:41,670
I thought your department sat around on
their retired duffs.

864
00:50:41,890 --> 00:50:45,290
Retired duffs? No, wait, hold on. There
are a few government jobs that are very

865
00:50:45,290 --> 00:50:46,249
important stuff.

866
00:50:46,250 --> 00:50:49,050
Oh, right, right, right, right.
Government jobs is flying for doing

867
00:50:49,050 --> 00:50:51,050
something of your own. I went in the
other day.

868
00:50:51,530 --> 00:50:53,870
I went in the other day. Two different
guys.

869
00:50:54,300 --> 00:50:57,540
We're making mailboxes. One guy was
repairing his wife's mix master. But

870
00:50:57,540 --> 00:51:00,720
they're paying you to come to work five
days a week. That's what they're paying

871
00:51:00,720 --> 00:51:04,920
you for. Paying me by the hour. Maybe
one week. I missed a couple of days

872
00:51:04,920 --> 00:51:06,680
because of tests at school. I had to
cram.

873
00:51:06,980 --> 00:51:09,440
Well, hell, I don't know. Learn to study
crap.

874
00:51:09,780 --> 00:51:10,800
Organize yourself, man.

875
00:51:11,520 --> 00:51:14,360
Dad's booked up for me down there. He
thinks I'm giving him a bad name, taking

876
00:51:14,360 --> 00:51:15,560
off. I'm a beatnik.

877
00:51:15,820 --> 00:51:17,400
They want you there five days a week.

878
00:51:17,840 --> 00:51:21,060
They don't give a damn if you stand on
your head or sit on your panty. They

879
00:51:21,060 --> 00:51:22,060
don't care.

880
00:51:22,160 --> 00:51:25,340
Just... As long as you show up. You
know, I don't miss that much, really.

881
00:51:25,980 --> 00:51:29,240
Just see that you get whatever it is you
have to do done today so we can leave on

882
00:51:29,240 --> 00:51:30,078
time, huh?

883
00:51:30,080 --> 00:51:31,860
I'm not going to come waiting around for
you.

884
00:51:32,360 --> 00:51:35,240
What do you do when you hear that? You
decide right there that you're not going

885
00:51:35,240 --> 00:51:36,240
to go, right?

886
00:51:36,340 --> 00:51:37,340
You think it's funny, huh?

887
00:51:38,680 --> 00:51:39,680
You want to do it now?

888
00:51:41,140 --> 00:51:44,380
Later. Want to do it now? We'll do it
now. Come on, come on. Let's do it now.

889
00:51:44,380 --> 00:51:45,380
We'll get to it later.

890
00:51:51,620 --> 00:51:52,620
Penny.

891
00:51:53,320 --> 00:51:54,780
We're gonna work right after lunch,
okay?

892
00:51:55,380 --> 00:51:56,380
Whenever.

893
00:52:15,460 --> 00:52:16,460
I...

894
00:52:21,320 --> 00:52:27,920
I keep on asking him to print up some of
his pictures of the Grand Canyon or

895
00:52:27,920 --> 00:52:28,920
something.

896
00:52:29,500 --> 00:52:31,220
But it's always those darn girls.

897
00:52:33,000 --> 00:52:34,920
Girls are so stupid to do that.

898
00:52:36,700 --> 00:52:43,220
I mean, I guess they think of a career,
but... Wow, that is so

899
00:52:43,220 --> 00:52:44,220
stupid.

900
00:52:46,680 --> 00:52:50,160
It's no worse, though. I'm always
imagining my wedding. Do you do that?

901
00:52:51,210 --> 00:52:52,630
Who are you thinking about marrying?

902
00:52:53,810 --> 00:52:54,810
Well, I'm not.

903
00:52:56,470 --> 00:52:57,710
I don't want to get married.

904
00:52:58,470 --> 00:53:01,470
I'd like to be a scientist just as much.
I picture that, too.

905
00:53:02,310 --> 00:53:04,570
Penny has a very rich fantasy life.

906
00:53:04,890 --> 00:53:06,770
Well, I do. I think it's healthy.

907
00:53:07,190 --> 00:53:12,570
I see myself in one of these white lab
coats, a bunch of bubbly test tubes

908
00:53:12,570 --> 00:53:16,410
coiled all around, analyzing blood and
making notations. Blood?

909
00:53:17,900 --> 00:53:21,220
Good God, you've got the most morbid
damn sense of duty.

910
00:53:45,420 --> 00:53:49,100
Do you like being away from Sonny as
much as you like being with him?

911
00:53:51,540 --> 00:53:52,540
What?

912
00:53:53,680 --> 00:53:57,660
Really, it's funny, but sometimes when
I'm with Phil, I think that I would

913
00:53:57,660 --> 00:53:58,900
really rather not be.

914
00:53:59,640 --> 00:54:02,780
So I could be away from him, wanting to
be with him.

915
00:54:03,820 --> 00:54:05,120
You like Phil, don't you?

916
00:54:06,120 --> 00:54:07,200
He's nice, isn't he?

917
00:54:07,960 --> 00:54:09,480
Do I? I don't know him.

918
00:54:10,420 --> 00:54:14,120
You went to school with him before he
graduated. I didn't.

919
00:54:14,680 --> 00:54:18,860
Carol goes to Grossmont, then he goes to
El Cajon. I thought he was a suck-up

920
00:54:18,860 --> 00:54:19,860
jerk.

921
00:54:20,400 --> 00:54:22,480
My gosh, why don't you like Phil?

922
00:54:23,100 --> 00:54:27,140
Good grief, all we can ever talk about
is Sonny. I don't even like Texas.

923
00:54:27,620 --> 00:54:31,200
I don't even know what a herfer looks
like. I bet you don't either.

924
00:54:32,960 --> 00:54:37,660
She used to talk about all of Sonny's
beautiful black Anguses.

925
00:54:39,620 --> 00:54:42,160
She didn't know if they were horses or
automobiles.

926
00:54:46,990 --> 00:54:48,490
Are you going to marry Sonny?

927
00:54:49,630 --> 00:54:50,990
I hope to hell.

928
00:54:52,570 --> 00:54:57,290
I'm not going this far at such
unimaginable expense and wind up...

929
00:54:57,290 --> 00:55:02,290
I'm going to invite all my scores and
wear white.

930
00:55:02,810 --> 00:55:04,350
I can't wait.

931
00:55:07,730 --> 00:55:10,770
Where is my baby oil?

932
00:55:11,270 --> 00:55:13,850
I bet I'd spend a fortune just from
losing.

933
00:55:18,220 --> 00:55:21,060
Penny, why don't you put on a swimsuit?
You're just going to bake.

934
00:55:21,620 --> 00:55:22,660
No, I'm not staying.

935
00:55:23,160 --> 00:55:25,680
You're driving me nuts out here dressed
up like an Eskimo.

936
00:55:26,100 --> 00:55:27,440
Put some oil on my back.

937
00:55:27,960 --> 00:55:28,980
You don't need that stuff.

938
00:55:29,260 --> 00:55:30,340
I feel like it's skin.

939
00:55:34,480 --> 00:55:36,240
One of those things you put over your
eyes.

940
00:55:36,820 --> 00:55:37,820
Plastic spoons.

941
00:55:39,220 --> 00:55:42,260
I knew a girl once went blind from
sunbathing with plastic spoons over her

942
00:55:42,260 --> 00:55:43,260
eyes. They melt.

943
00:55:44,280 --> 00:55:45,198
You're going to be...

944
00:55:45,200 --> 00:55:48,100
Solid brown with white eyelids. Oh, do
you shut up?

945
00:55:54,280 --> 00:55:57,340
I'm going to stop this now because I
think that you're enjoying this in all

946
00:55:57,340 --> 00:55:58,340
the wrong ways.

947
00:55:59,060 --> 00:56:00,060
I don't understand.

948
00:56:00,400 --> 00:56:02,660
I thought I'd probably expose myself to
turkey nose.

949
00:56:03,500 --> 00:56:05,500
He went in and watched him.

950
00:56:06,700 --> 00:56:07,700
He did not.

951
00:56:10,820 --> 00:56:11,820
Any pills today?

952
00:56:14,350 --> 00:56:15,350
Who counts anymore?

953
00:56:17,470 --> 00:56:20,150
Three or four so far, and that's pretty
far.

954
00:56:22,070 --> 00:56:25,350
You shouldn't take those and lie in the
sun. Oh, God.

955
00:56:27,090 --> 00:56:30,970
The things you're opposed to, you're
worth some money. I'm not opposed to

956
00:56:30,970 --> 00:56:32,270
them. You just shouldn't, that's all.

957
00:56:34,650 --> 00:56:38,650
I ain't gonna die farting over those
damn boots on.

958
00:56:39,170 --> 00:56:41,650
Jerry, Jerry, don't say damn in front of
your brother.

959
00:56:42,040 --> 00:56:45,020
You won't be old enough to say that for
15 years yet. Why not?

960
00:56:45,320 --> 00:56:46,740
If you've got a few years to go.

961
00:56:55,220 --> 00:56:59,140
Lady killer.

962
00:57:01,460 --> 00:57:04,540
What can I say if I can't say that? How
racy should it be?

963
00:57:06,060 --> 00:57:07,060
Pretty racy.

964
00:57:07,600 --> 00:57:10,160
Well, why don't you try...

965
00:57:13,310 --> 00:57:14,450
Nope, nope.

966
00:57:15,170 --> 00:57:16,850
Okay, how do I know if they're
acceptable?

967
00:57:17,450 --> 00:57:20,330
Okay, you come to me, whisper them in my
ear.

968
00:57:20,590 --> 00:57:24,790
If they happen not to be acceptable,
I'll wash your mouth out with soap.

969
00:57:27,670 --> 00:57:28,670
Hey,

970
00:57:29,590 --> 00:57:31,430
hey, get over here.

971
00:57:34,390 --> 00:57:35,390
What are you, crazy?

972
00:57:35,850 --> 00:57:36,850
What do you say?

973
00:57:37,030 --> 00:57:40,010
It will be excused. Yes, you may. Don't
tear the house down.

974
00:57:41,190 --> 00:57:46,890
The kids on the block have a bucket
brigade of profanity. Well, I wouldn't

975
00:57:46,890 --> 00:57:49,210
want them to turn out like Alan's
buddies from up at State.

976
00:57:49,650 --> 00:57:53,170
All potatoes and no meat. Look like
they're made out of unbaked dough.

977
00:57:53,390 --> 00:57:54,670
Hell, they even talk like it.

978
00:57:55,050 --> 00:57:57,810
My friends? What do you talk? My friends
swear like sailors.

979
00:57:58,010 --> 00:58:02,130
That's part of the emancipated young
adult jargon. Well, I'd be surprised if

980
00:58:02,130 --> 00:58:03,009
they knew what it meant.

981
00:58:03,010 --> 00:58:04,870
You know, we dropped him off the other
morning.

982
00:58:05,250 --> 00:58:08,890
Oh, yeah, sometime last month you
dropped me off. Two weeks ago, Friday.

983
00:58:09,700 --> 00:58:10,700
Compromise, purple.

984
00:58:11,180 --> 00:58:14,420
You see, I think that's the funniest
line in the play. He introduced Ronnie

985
00:58:14,420 --> 00:58:15,480
and me to a few of them.

986
00:58:16,140 --> 00:58:19,840
There was Joan and Sasha and Owen.

987
00:58:20,680 --> 00:58:23,020
And don't they ever get out into the
sun?

988
00:58:24,480 --> 00:58:25,480
Into the sun?

989
00:58:25,900 --> 00:58:27,680
Oh, my God, are you kidding? Into the
sun?

990
00:58:29,180 --> 00:58:34,060
I discovered there's this whole
beautiful, poetical, intellectual

991
00:58:34,060 --> 00:58:38,540
coterie that wouldn't be caught dead in
the sun. They're great, but they're

992
00:58:38,540 --> 00:58:41,440
nuts. They're like the Castilian
Spanish.

993
00:58:41,660 --> 00:58:43,900
The whiter you are, the brighter you
are.

994
00:58:44,260 --> 00:58:46,860
They're nuts, but you love them for it.

995
00:58:47,760 --> 00:58:50,440
A lot of the young kids up at State...
Young? Young them?

996
00:58:51,300 --> 00:58:54,140
Man, they're on their pensions. Who are
you trying to kid? They're cadavers.

997
00:58:55,820 --> 00:59:00,660
Ronnie, did you read... Carol, did you
read this magazine thing they put out at

998
00:59:00,660 --> 00:59:02,500
State? No. Huh? No.

999
00:59:02,820 --> 00:59:05,540
That's what I'm talking about, Ronnie.
You take a look at that sunlight. You

1000
00:59:05,540 --> 00:59:06,680
tell me if it turns you on.

1001
00:59:07,950 --> 00:59:12,630
What he's saying, Alan, is it doesn't
stack up to his garage collection of the

1002
00:59:12,630 --> 00:59:14,770
complete Earl Stanley Gardner.

1003
00:59:15,370 --> 00:59:18,030
Listen, Twit, unless you read those
books, just don't knock them, huh?

1004
00:59:18,710 --> 00:59:22,510
You know, people are a darn sight more
interested in light than they are in

1005
00:59:22,510 --> 00:59:28,170
plants and creepy ferns, creepy shadows,
creepy creeps. Nobody reads the damn

1006
00:59:28,170 --> 00:59:30,550
magazine except your creepy college
would-be poets.

1007
00:59:32,250 --> 00:59:35,130
I didn't even graduate high school. I
bet I could take any one of them on in

1008
00:59:35,130 --> 00:59:36,770
anything, except arithmetic.

1009
00:59:37,400 --> 00:59:39,020
Dad and I are both rotten with figures.

1010
00:59:39,400 --> 00:59:40,400
Some figures.

1011
00:59:42,000 --> 00:59:43,000
Probably you could.

1012
00:59:43,160 --> 00:59:44,340
You damn betcha.

1013
00:59:45,480 --> 00:59:47,600
What do they retain? History? Huh?

1014
00:59:48,700 --> 00:59:54,620
I bet you don't know the, uh, precedents
of the United States, your own country,

1015
00:59:54,720 --> 00:59:55,379
do you?

1016
00:59:55,380 --> 00:59:56,380
Hmm?

1017
00:59:58,780 --> 01:00:00,500
No. God, no.

1018
01:00:01,420 --> 01:00:05,580
I only know the, uh, the capitals of the
states because I had a jigsaw puzzle.

1019
01:00:06,640 --> 01:00:08,680
And, uh, the vice presidents?

1020
01:00:09,080 --> 01:00:10,640
No, I don't know any of the vice
presidents.

1021
01:00:10,980 --> 01:00:14,520
Well, I don't suppose eight out of the
ten thousand of them know them either.

1022
01:00:15,340 --> 01:00:16,980
Who was Washington's vice president?

1023
01:00:17,660 --> 01:00:19,980
I don't know. First vice president of
the United States.

1024
01:00:22,700 --> 01:00:23,980
I said no, I'm stupid.

1025
01:00:25,000 --> 01:00:26,100
Adams? Right.

1026
01:00:29,020 --> 01:00:30,180
Only that's it.

1027
01:00:30,660 --> 01:00:31,660
Washington Adams.

1028
01:00:32,120 --> 01:00:33,800
Adams Jefferson. Jefferson Byrd.

1029
01:00:34,890 --> 01:00:40,950
Jefferson Clinton, Madison Clinton,
Madison Jerry, Monroe Thornton, Adams

1030
01:00:40,950 --> 01:00:46,170
Calhoun, Jackson Calhoun, Jackson Van
Buren, Van Buren Johnson, Harrison

1031
01:00:46,170 --> 01:00:51,690
Tyler. Oh, that's great. That's great.
That's Tyler of Tippecanoe and Tyler Too

1032
01:00:51,690 --> 01:00:52,690
fame? That's right.

1033
01:00:53,430 --> 01:00:55,810
Who was Teddy Roosevelt's first vice
president?

1034
01:01:02,470 --> 01:01:03,950
Cleveland Stevenson.

1035
01:01:05,070 --> 01:01:06,070
McKinley, Hobart.

1036
01:01:06,250 --> 01:01:08,910
McKinley, Roosevelt. Roosevelt, nobody.
Roosevelt, Fairbanks.

1037
01:01:11,170 --> 01:01:12,270
Taft, Sherman.

1038
01:01:12,970 --> 01:01:13,970
Wilson, Marshall.

1039
01:01:14,390 --> 01:01:15,390
Harding, Coolidge.

1040
01:01:15,830 --> 01:01:16,830
Coolidge, Dawes.

1041
01:01:18,030 --> 01:01:19,090
Roosevelt, Garner.

1042
01:01:19,430 --> 01:01:20,530
Roosevelt, Wallace.

1043
01:01:21,090 --> 01:01:22,470
Roosevelt, Truman.

1044
01:01:24,030 --> 01:01:25,270
Terrible. Look at that.

1045
01:01:25,490 --> 01:01:27,510
Tore it right across my ear. What?

1046
01:01:27,890 --> 01:01:29,470
The picture Dad took of us.

1047
01:01:31,630 --> 01:01:33,550
Doug, you didn't tear that up, did you?
What?

1048
01:01:33,900 --> 01:01:35,400
Tore what? I wanted a print of that.

1049
01:01:36,600 --> 01:01:39,960
What? That's no good. Your mother loved
it. I told you what she said.

1050
01:01:40,220 --> 01:01:42,640
Well, mother, bless her heart, doesn't
know much about photography.

1051
01:01:43,580 --> 01:01:46,880
I don't either, but I wanted one. No, I
tore it up. It wasn't any good. The

1052
01:01:46,880 --> 01:01:47,718
light was bad.

1053
01:01:47,720 --> 01:01:48,720
I'll print it up again.

1054
01:01:49,080 --> 01:01:50,440
You never even intended to.

1055
01:01:53,180 --> 01:01:57,020
How do you know what I intended to do
and what I didn't intend to do, huh?

1056
01:01:57,140 --> 01:01:59,400
That's the only picture we had of him.
You haven't taken a picture of the

1057
01:01:59,400 --> 01:02:00,460
boy... The lousy picture.

1058
01:02:00,700 --> 01:02:01,740
The light was bad.

1059
01:02:02,220 --> 01:02:04,440
It's a bad print. I'll print it up
again.

1060
01:02:04,700 --> 01:02:06,760
It's a nut shot, for God's sake.

1061
01:02:08,680 --> 01:02:09,780
Penny, you gonna help or not?

1062
01:02:10,080 --> 01:02:11,500
Yeah, I will.

1063
01:02:13,800 --> 01:02:17,800
I really wanted that. All right, now,
that's enough about the goddamn picture.

1064
01:02:20,360 --> 01:02:21,660
I've had it with you, mister.

1065
01:02:24,240 --> 01:02:29,800
Along about this time, a poet of local
fame...

1066
01:02:30,190 --> 01:02:34,570
At school who had left state a few years
earlier came back for a visit for a day

1067
01:02:34,570 --> 01:02:40,290
or so I've tried to remember what he
wrote but outside of a firm conviction

1068
01:02:40,290 --> 01:02:47,210
that he was the most brilliant person
that I had ever met and wrote more

1069
01:02:47,210 --> 01:02:54,150
perfectly than of I Can't remember

1070
01:02:54,150 --> 01:02:58,710
a word in any case and that's odd it was
probably More lines about creepy ferns

1071
01:02:58,710 --> 01:03:00,490
and creepy shadows for creepy creeps.

1072
01:03:03,650 --> 01:03:06,510
I do know that we talked.

1073
01:03:08,070 --> 01:03:11,390
And that we walked up into a landscape.

1074
01:03:12,530 --> 01:03:14,050
Into the burned forest.

1075
01:03:15,310 --> 01:03:16,410
Looked like the moon.

1076
01:03:18,670 --> 01:03:24,150
Charred, mesquite, and ashes six inches
deep. The brush.

1077
01:03:24,890 --> 01:03:28,910
Some of it, the fire had gone through it
so quickly that some of it stood like

1078
01:03:28,910 --> 01:03:31,730
ashes on a cigarette.

1079
01:03:32,170 --> 01:03:33,250
Three feet high.

1080
01:03:34,370 --> 01:03:40,170
The white negative of the brush
completely intact. And you touched it

1081
01:03:40,170 --> 01:03:42,090
and it disintegrated.

1082
01:03:45,010 --> 01:03:50,450
And into the woods that were saved to
commune with

1083
01:03:50,450 --> 01:03:52,850
what was left of nature.

1084
01:03:54,640 --> 01:04:01,580
And after three afternoons of walking, I
spent two days in my room.

1085
01:04:03,640 --> 01:04:05,760
And when I returned to school, the poet
had gone.

1086
01:04:06,800 --> 01:04:07,800
He left.

1087
01:04:08,280 --> 01:04:09,280
He wasn't around.

1088
01:04:12,040 --> 01:04:15,440
Doug and I had a terrible argument about
you last night.

1089
01:04:16,380 --> 01:04:17,380
What?

1090
01:04:18,400 --> 01:04:20,360
Wait a second, I'm not getting the drift
of what you're saying.

1091
01:04:21,380 --> 01:04:22,440
Actually, he argued.

1092
01:04:23,370 --> 01:04:26,390
He said, if you'll excuse the
expression,

1093
01:04:27,110 --> 01:04:29,550
you hadn't had a piece of ass since
you've been here.

1094
01:04:30,350 --> 01:04:31,350
I hadn't what?

1095
01:04:34,850 --> 01:04:38,110
You saw that gang of doughballs he was
hanging out with at school?

1096
01:04:40,850 --> 01:04:43,590
I'm not so sure he's quite hanging out
with them.

1097
01:04:45,450 --> 01:04:47,250
Well, I'm not saying what he's doing
with them.

1098
01:04:48,170 --> 01:04:49,570
But I know what he's not doing.

1099
01:04:50,630 --> 01:04:51,990
When's he been out on a date, hmm?

1100
01:04:54,990 --> 01:04:58,670
And squiring Cookie to the local movie
in El Cajon and back twice. What the

1101
01:04:58,670 --> 01:05:01,730
hell is that, huh? You can hardly expect
him to go for Cookie.

1102
01:05:02,490 --> 01:05:04,950
I mean, Cookie's hardly the freshest
thing on the block.

1103
01:05:05,250 --> 01:05:06,490
And it's a small block.

1104
01:05:06,970 --> 01:05:07,970
When's he gone out?

1105
01:05:08,250 --> 01:05:09,250
Well, when's he had time?

1106
01:05:09,550 --> 01:05:11,750
He's got full-time work and full-time
school.

1107
01:05:12,250 --> 01:05:15,850
Ah, summer term. Everybody else on
vacation. He hangs around the house. He

1108
01:05:15,850 --> 01:05:16,850
hangs around school.

1109
01:05:17,870 --> 01:05:20,150
He hasn't had a piece of ass since he's
been here.

1110
01:05:22,770 --> 01:05:23,770
Well...

1111
01:05:23,960 --> 01:05:25,460
He's been here four or five months.

1112
01:05:26,080 --> 01:05:27,280
I don't know. Well, nothing.

1113
01:05:28,000 --> 01:05:32,740
He's not getting anything from that gang
of dishwater dames up at school. I'll

1114
01:05:32,740 --> 01:05:33,740
tell you that.

1115
01:05:34,040 --> 01:05:35,760
If he is, he ought to be ashamed of
himself.

1116
01:05:36,640 --> 01:05:40,020
Gee, what's the matter with him? Hadn't
he got a libido?

1117
01:05:40,500 --> 01:05:42,480
I don't think you're proud of him for...
Proud of what?

1118
01:05:43,000 --> 01:05:45,740
Well, he doesn't drink. He doesn't scoot
around on a motorcycle.

1119
01:05:45,960 --> 01:05:48,380
He's no... Well, maybe he should. You
know, I told him he could have the car

1120
01:05:48,380 --> 01:05:50,460
any time he wanted. He's never asked for
it once.

1121
01:05:50,760 --> 01:05:52,060
Whenever are you not using it?

1122
01:05:52,410 --> 01:05:53,970
Plenty is the answer to that. Plenty.

1123
01:05:55,550 --> 01:05:57,930
You also promised him a new Austin. He
hadn't seen that.

1124
01:05:58,670 --> 01:06:00,910
Not on your damn life. Not until he
shows some interest.

1125
01:06:01,310 --> 01:06:03,310
When am I going to get a car to rust in
the driveway?

1126
01:06:04,670 --> 01:06:06,250
I drove out to the damn lot.

1127
01:06:06,710 --> 01:06:09,910
He looked around mildly. Came back
saying he liked them all.

1128
01:06:10,510 --> 01:06:13,470
Started taking a bus to school. Now,
what the hell is that?

1129
01:06:14,490 --> 01:06:15,490
When would I have time?

1130
01:06:16,070 --> 01:06:17,070
That's what I said.

1131
01:06:17,710 --> 01:06:20,810
Still. I don't see that it's any of his
business anyway. Good God.

1132
01:06:22,380 --> 01:06:24,700
I told him he didn't have a detective on
your tail.

1133
01:06:25,060 --> 01:06:26,060
How could he know?

1134
01:06:28,020 --> 01:06:29,020
Tail is funny.

1135
01:06:29,800 --> 01:06:31,880
I'm not going to break him in like some
kind of hunting dog.

1136
01:06:32,480 --> 01:06:35,840
Chop a quail into his mouth, have him
spit it out till I can teach him what it

1137
01:06:35,840 --> 01:06:36,900
is. He isn't stupid.

1138
01:06:37,840 --> 01:06:39,840
What man doesn't know where the hunt is?

1139
01:06:42,160 --> 01:06:44,180
I don't want to tell you.

1140
01:06:46,020 --> 01:06:47,620
It just isn't living, though, Ronnie.

1141
01:06:50,000 --> 01:06:51,000
Life is for living.

1142
01:06:51,290 --> 01:06:52,870
The best is none too good.

1143
01:06:55,190 --> 01:06:58,690
About a hundred times Mom's told me
that. Your dad always said the best is

1144
01:06:58,690 --> 01:07:01,050
none too good. The best is none too
good.

1145
01:07:01,270 --> 01:07:03,370
She used to say I was like him a lot.
You're like him a lot.

1146
01:07:04,410 --> 01:07:05,410
She's right, damn it.

1147
01:07:06,150 --> 01:07:07,650
More right every day I live.

1148
01:07:09,550 --> 01:07:10,610
He isn't like me.

1149
01:07:12,070 --> 01:07:13,230
Not on your life, he isn't.

1150
01:07:15,390 --> 01:07:18,770
Maybe I got into some trouble. Maybe I
got with some kids that were a bad

1151
01:07:18,770 --> 01:07:23,270
influence. I don't say it was an angel,
but... I knew where the food was. I knew

1152
01:07:23,270 --> 01:07:24,370
where my hands were.

1153
01:07:24,910 --> 01:07:27,030
If I knew what I had, I knew where to
put it to.

1154
01:07:27,530 --> 01:07:29,570
And I had women. I mean, real women.

1155
01:07:29,830 --> 01:07:34,190
First woman I had was 35 years old. I
was a kid 15. Don't think she didn't

1156
01:07:34,190 --> 01:07:35,190
teach fast.

1157
01:07:35,750 --> 01:07:37,330
I'm younger now than he is.

1158
01:07:38,190 --> 01:07:42,030
And I grew up in the same goddamn
two-bit Nebraska town he did, so don't

1159
01:07:42,030 --> 01:07:42,609
pull that.

1160
01:07:42,610 --> 01:07:46,410
I don't think it's at all unusual for a
boy 17 to be more interested. I don't

1161
01:07:46,410 --> 01:07:47,690
want to hear it. I don't want to hear
it.

1162
01:07:48,470 --> 01:07:49,990
I'm younger now than he is now.

1163
01:07:51,279 --> 01:07:54,680
You squeal around the corner with a
girl's hair flying out. By God, she is

1164
01:07:54,680 --> 01:07:55,680
all over you.

1165
01:07:56,080 --> 01:07:57,480
Wiggle into behind and you're left.

1166
01:07:58,580 --> 01:08:01,900
By God, you pull right over the curb.
You let her have it right there.

1167
01:08:03,460 --> 01:08:05,980
Or you pull into a garage or a lot, a
parking lot.

1168
01:08:06,660 --> 01:08:07,660
What's he going to do?

1169
01:08:08,300 --> 01:08:10,940
He's going to take a cheap bottle of
booze in some wet hotel room?

1170
01:08:11,460 --> 01:08:15,540
What does he know? I never went to one
cheap hotel room with a bottle of cheap

1171
01:08:15,540 --> 01:08:18,740
booze in my life. You think I want to
sit around on those swayback mattresses?

1172
01:08:18,880 --> 01:08:19,880
Huh?

1173
01:08:20,000 --> 01:08:23,380
Fern holes all over the furniture
varnish, glass circles, God knows what

1174
01:08:23,380 --> 01:08:24,380
laid what there.

1175
01:08:24,720 --> 01:08:30,140
Out in the grass, alongside the road,

1176
01:08:30,319 --> 01:08:35,300
under nature's clean sky with the wind
blowing and the stars and all that sweet

1177
01:08:35,300 --> 01:08:36,420
smell of lipstick.

1178
01:08:45,020 --> 01:08:46,300
Beaches at night are lined up.

1179
01:08:47,240 --> 01:08:48,240
Worthy, huh?

1180
01:08:48,340 --> 01:08:49,859
Ronnie, he's 18 years old.

1181
01:08:50,140 --> 01:08:51,140
What's he doing?

1182
01:08:51,720 --> 01:08:53,600
Well, tell him, honey. Don't tell me.

1183
01:08:54,140 --> 01:08:58,060
I'm not interested in seducing young
girls. His mother stunted him. She

1184
01:08:58,060 --> 01:09:04,100
neutered him. She stunted him. His
hair... All right, all right. He's an

1185
01:09:04,100 --> 01:09:06,060
all right looking guy. Not bad. He could
be.

1186
01:09:07,920 --> 01:09:12,060
Let those two damn phony girls get a
hold of him. Twist his hair up like a

1187
01:09:12,060 --> 01:09:13,060
pretzel.

1188
01:09:13,540 --> 01:09:15,760
Curled up like some kind of a rock and
roll singer.

1189
01:09:16,880 --> 01:09:18,680
That's what the girls are going for
nowadays.

1190
01:09:19,040 --> 01:09:20,040
Oh, nowadays.

1191
01:09:20,700 --> 01:09:24,979
Ronnie, hair that long all curled up
like that, I can't sit at the table with

1192
01:09:24,979 --> 01:09:26,140
them without wanting to throw up.

1193
01:09:26,380 --> 01:09:28,200
Like the matching ball nowadays.

1194
01:09:28,500 --> 01:09:29,520
Women go for men.

1195
01:09:30,660 --> 01:09:34,600
That's what they go for. They go for
vitality, vigor, exuberance, strength.

1196
01:09:34,600 --> 01:09:35,600
They go for men.

1197
01:09:36,960 --> 01:09:37,960
What are you talking?

1198
01:09:40,100 --> 01:09:44,600
You know, Dad asked me last night to
contribute $25.

1199
01:09:45,680 --> 01:09:50,740
Each week to the family fund to pay my
way around here for room and board.

1200
01:09:54,360 --> 01:09:57,640
For 12 years, he didn't pay a red cent
toward my welfare, and suddenly I'm a

1201
01:09:57,640 --> 01:09:59,680
drain on the budget. I'm under mouth to
pee.

1202
01:10:00,440 --> 01:10:01,440
God damn.

1203
01:10:03,580 --> 01:10:08,380
I don't feel that I should be working
for you.

1204
01:10:09,180 --> 01:10:12,200
All I bargained for was part-time work
and full-time college.

1205
01:10:12,480 --> 01:10:13,600
I'm full-time working.

1206
01:10:14,110 --> 01:10:16,650
And I can't save up enough money to quit
because you people can't afford to keep

1207
01:10:16,650 --> 01:10:17,790
me here unless I pay my own way.

1208
01:10:19,570 --> 01:10:21,110
Don't you think you should pay toward
it, Alan?

1209
01:10:22,810 --> 01:10:23,810
Because we can.

1210
01:10:24,610 --> 01:10:25,650
We want you to know that.

1211
01:10:27,090 --> 01:10:29,210
By God, when I say come to work, I mean
it.

1212
01:10:29,910 --> 01:10:32,550
What the hell is... Where are you sick?

1213
01:10:32,810 --> 01:10:33,810
All over.

1214
01:10:34,810 --> 01:10:40,290
I'm not sick. I don't feel like going. I
don't feel well. I don't want to go to

1215
01:10:40,290 --> 01:10:42,490
work. I got things to do. I don't feel
good.

1216
01:10:43,210 --> 01:10:47,660
Well... The status says you're never
there five days a week.

1217
01:10:48,140 --> 01:10:51,300
Now, at least on a day like today,
you're frisking around the house all

1218
01:10:51,300 --> 01:10:55,240
day. By God, you can go to work. Since
when didn't you feel well? Now, what's

1219
01:10:55,240 --> 01:10:56,660
wrong? What difference does it make?
Listen, listen.

1220
01:10:57,220 --> 01:10:59,860
If school gets in the way, you can quit
school.

1221
01:11:00,280 --> 01:11:02,000
I don't see work getting in the way of
school.

1222
01:11:02,220 --> 01:11:03,980
You miss the school, too? No, not yet.

1223
01:11:04,200 --> 01:11:06,580
Yeah, you mope around like a sick calf.

1224
01:11:07,120 --> 01:11:08,680
About time someone put a...

1225
01:11:10,030 --> 01:11:13,630
Put a firecracker under your tail, see
if there's any life in you. You and

1226
01:11:13,630 --> 01:11:16,750
Penny, the whole damn lot of you. Maybe
you should take some liver tablets, huh?

1227
01:11:16,890 --> 01:11:17,890
Perhaps I should. Yeah.

1228
01:11:18,670 --> 01:11:19,469
What's wrong?

1229
01:11:19,470 --> 01:11:20,369
I can't be sick.

1230
01:11:20,370 --> 01:11:26,730
If I believe it, for any goddamn reason,
you can't go in except you don't want

1231
01:11:26,730 --> 01:11:27,730
to.

1232
01:11:32,650 --> 01:11:35,610
I'm serious now, Alan. I just want to
know one thing. What importance is the

1233
01:11:35,610 --> 01:11:38,290
job down there? Because I told you to. I
said so.

1234
01:11:38,680 --> 01:11:41,880
I told you to get ready. I wasn't having
you make the whole damn carload of a

1235
01:11:41,880 --> 01:11:42,659
slate again.

1236
01:11:42,660 --> 01:11:46,880
Are you coming to work or not? No, God
damn it, I'm not. I'm not. I don't feel

1237
01:11:46,880 --> 01:11:50,200
well, okay? I mean, I told you, I got
three chapters to read.

1238
01:11:51,100 --> 01:11:55,400
All right, once and for all, I'm not
going to say this. You want to stay

1239
01:11:55,400 --> 01:11:56,780
here? Answer me.

1240
01:11:57,680 --> 01:11:59,220
Yes, yes, that's what I'm saying.

1241
01:11:59,520 --> 01:12:02,400
I mean, you want to stay here, live here
in this house.

1242
01:12:04,480 --> 01:12:05,480
What?

1243
01:12:07,050 --> 01:12:07,929
I guess.

1244
01:12:07,930 --> 01:12:11,030
By God, if you do, you better know this
is my home.

1245
01:12:11,610 --> 01:12:12,610
I say here.

1246
01:12:13,250 --> 01:12:14,690
I call the shots here.

1247
01:12:15,090 --> 01:12:16,170
What I say goes.

1248
01:12:16,850 --> 01:12:19,730
Anybody who doesn't like that, they
could find a roof over their head

1249
01:12:19,730 --> 01:12:22,650
somewhere else. And you better be for
learning that fast because I don't take

1250
01:12:22,650 --> 01:12:23,650
any shit.

1251
01:12:23,810 --> 01:12:26,530
None. None, mister. Not from you. Not
from anybody else.

1252
01:12:28,230 --> 01:12:29,230
You learn it.

1253
01:13:00,560 --> 01:13:01,880
I can't do this. Hell.

1254
01:13:05,220 --> 01:13:09,820
It was, um... pounding.

1255
01:13:14,860 --> 01:13:17,380
He left.

1256
01:13:19,200 --> 01:13:24,720
And, uh... I... I...

1257
01:13:24,720 --> 01:13:27,480
Ronnie went down the hall.

1258
01:13:33,790 --> 01:13:36,650
blindly turned around and went out into
the backyard.

1259
01:13:38,250 --> 01:13:41,850
And fell down on the ground and bawled
like I never remember bawling before or

1260
01:13:41,850 --> 01:13:42,850
since.

1261
01:13:42,930 --> 01:13:49,870
Sobbing, I... What was I

1262
01:13:49,870 --> 01:13:50,870
thinking?

1263
01:13:52,650 --> 01:13:57,770
Well, of course, all the times that I
wanted a father and not had one.

1264
01:13:58,830 --> 01:14:01,390
And the times that I wanted to live with
Dad.

1265
01:14:03,270 --> 01:14:09,730
and the struggle that my mother had had
during the war working at a garment

1266
01:14:09,730 --> 01:14:16,050
factory. And before that, of the things
that I can remember, you know, remember

1267
01:14:16,050 --> 01:14:22,970
of my father before and what I had been
told,

1268
01:14:23,070 --> 01:14:28,670
my mom's stories, and my sister who was
born dead when he was out with whoever

1269
01:14:28,670 --> 01:14:29,670
it was that he was out with.

1270
01:14:32,960 --> 01:14:34,740
That had always been my picture of him.

1271
01:14:35,740 --> 01:14:40,080
Her walking the floor, him coming in,
her crying.

1272
01:14:44,200 --> 01:14:46,800
Ronnie was in the house. I was very
aware of that.

1273
01:14:47,760 --> 01:14:52,560
I expected her to come out and talk to
me.

1274
01:14:53,180 --> 01:14:54,180
Something.

1275
01:14:54,960 --> 01:14:56,760
Ronnie and I were close. We were
friends.

1276
01:14:59,680 --> 01:15:02,220
If I had left, then...

1277
01:15:03,440 --> 01:15:06,080
Where could I have gone? I couldn't
consider it.

1278
01:15:07,920 --> 01:15:12,160
This is where I'd come to, right to the
edge of the continent. I didn't think

1279
01:15:12,160 --> 01:15:13,360
about going. I couldn't leave.

1280
01:15:14,040 --> 01:15:18,420
I didn't know what we had been fighting
about. I quite honestly didn't know, not

1281
01:15:18,420 --> 01:15:19,420
then.

1282
01:15:21,440 --> 01:15:22,960
Well, neither here nor there.

1283
01:15:23,920 --> 01:15:27,120
Finally, I got up, aching, went inside.

1284
01:15:27,720 --> 01:15:28,860
I knew you went out.

1285
01:15:30,760 --> 01:15:31,940
I knew you were crying.

1286
01:15:33,520 --> 01:15:34,600
I didn't look out.

1287
01:15:35,880 --> 01:15:37,680
I assumed you wanted your privacy.

1288
01:15:38,360 --> 01:15:39,820
I didn't want to embarrass you.

1289
01:15:41,620 --> 01:15:44,280
I just... sat.

1290
01:15:46,160 --> 01:15:47,240
Tried to sort the wall.

1291
01:15:47,800 --> 01:15:48,800
Not to listen.

1292
01:15:49,620 --> 01:15:50,620
Cleaned up the bedroom.

1293
01:15:52,720 --> 01:15:54,580
Penny had vanished, very unlike her.

1294
01:15:55,820 --> 01:15:57,140
Nobody'd seen her all afternoon.

1295
01:15:59,000 --> 01:16:02,300
Rose finally called and said that she
was over there, which was all right, I

1296
01:16:02,300 --> 01:16:07,870
suppose. At least we knew where she was.
I went to bed at about 12, and Dad came

1297
01:16:07,870 --> 01:16:10,210
home from work. I heard him in the
kitchen making scrambled eggs and French

1298
01:16:10,210 --> 01:16:11,670
toast or something.

1299
01:16:13,550 --> 01:16:16,150
I almost expected him to come in and
apologize to me.

1300
01:16:16,910 --> 01:16:17,909
All right?

1301
01:16:17,910 --> 01:16:19,010
I did expect him to.

1302
01:16:19,870 --> 01:16:20,870
I don't know for what.

1303
01:16:22,810 --> 01:16:23,810
I couldn't sleep.

1304
01:16:25,250 --> 01:16:28,230
And I got up and got dressed after he'd
gone to bed.

1305
01:16:29,650 --> 01:16:34,970
And I actually went... To a bar. To a
deserted bar.

1306
01:16:35,310 --> 01:16:39,270
I came home drunk as a lord. I shouldn't
have waited up. I woke up and wondered

1307
01:16:39,270 --> 01:16:40,270
where you were.

1308
01:16:42,070 --> 01:16:47,790
And the next morning, bright and early,
Dad's photography club went off to the

1309
01:16:47,790 --> 01:16:48,790
mountains.

1310
01:16:49,570 --> 01:16:51,330
And I woke up with a hangover.

1311
01:16:54,090 --> 01:16:58,930
So, we begin and end, both with a
splitting headache.

1312
01:17:00,070 --> 01:17:02,370
And Penny... Ronnie. Came home to leave.

1313
01:17:02,760 --> 01:17:03,760
Ronnie.

1314
01:17:04,680 --> 01:17:06,260
Why did you stay with Rose, Penny?

1315
01:17:07,080 --> 01:17:10,300
You know you should call if you decide
to leave like that. We were worried

1316
01:17:10,300 --> 01:17:11,300
about you.

1317
01:17:11,800 --> 01:17:12,920
I can't stay here.

1318
01:17:13,860 --> 01:17:17,460
I love you very much, but I will go live
with Rose. I already asked them. They

1319
01:17:17,460 --> 01:17:18,460
said it was all right.

1320
01:17:19,160 --> 01:17:21,680
I didn't tell them why. I wouldn't tell
them that.

1321
01:17:22,880 --> 01:17:25,980
What's wrong, Penny? You know you can't
stay with Rose. That's stupid.

1322
01:17:27,520 --> 01:17:30,700
With her mother. I can live with her
mother. She can take me.

1323
01:17:33,530 --> 01:17:40,370
Ronnie, yesterday afternoon with Doug,
we were in the darkroom and working

1324
01:17:40,370 --> 01:17:44,450
like always, and he put his arm around
me.

1325
01:17:45,690 --> 01:17:51,930
He started talking to me, talking to me
about how I liked to help him work, what

1326
01:17:51,930 --> 01:17:56,650
a good foster father he had been to me,
what a good relationship we had.

1327
01:17:59,090 --> 01:18:00,090
And...

1328
01:18:02,380 --> 01:18:03,540
He kissed my cheek.

1329
01:18:07,520 --> 01:18:10,860
I didn't know what to do.

1330
01:18:11,160 --> 01:18:16,620
I thought of once when I was about 14, a
man tried to put his hand in my lap in a

1331
01:18:16,620 --> 01:18:17,620
movie once.

1332
01:18:19,000 --> 01:18:20,480
I felt that same way.

1333
01:18:24,540 --> 01:18:30,760
He put his hand up under my shirt.

1334
01:18:32,390 --> 01:18:33,390
On my stomach.

1335
01:18:36,510 --> 01:18:43,250
And try to turn me around and kiss my
mouth with his mustache on my cheek.

1336
01:18:45,910 --> 01:18:47,610
And I just pulled away.

1337
01:18:48,910 --> 01:18:49,970
And got out.

1338
01:18:53,210 --> 01:18:54,210
Went out.

1339
01:18:56,430 --> 01:18:58,010
I want to leave here.

1340
01:18:58,910 --> 01:19:00,710
Well, I don't blame you, honey, but...

1341
01:19:00,990 --> 01:19:02,250
You don't have to do that, Penny.

1342
01:19:02,930 --> 01:19:05,990
My God, this guy didn't fall in, Henny
Penny.

1343
01:19:06,850 --> 01:19:07,850
What will he do?

1344
01:19:11,430 --> 01:19:13,170
I can't look him in the face.

1345
01:19:14,770 --> 01:19:15,770
Ronnie.

1346
01:19:16,530 --> 01:19:18,310
I'm gonna pat you.

1347
01:19:19,590 --> 01:19:20,950
I don't want to sleep here.

1348
01:19:21,370 --> 01:19:24,630
You tell the authorities I'm still here
if you want to. They don't know the

1349
01:19:24,630 --> 01:19:25,930
difference. They never care anyway.

1350
01:19:29,230 --> 01:19:30,750
I don't want to tell him why.

1351
01:19:31,590 --> 01:19:38,570
Oh, Penny, stop being so... I mean, it's
all so pathetic. I mean, damn, it's just

1352
01:19:38,570 --> 01:19:39,570
stupid.

1353
01:19:41,590 --> 01:19:44,850
I mean, Penny, for God's sake, look at
her.

1354
01:19:45,750 --> 01:19:49,210
She hadn't a single quality anyone would
go for unless you happen to really

1355
01:19:49,210 --> 01:19:51,010
desire pure virginity in the abstract.

1356
01:19:52,830 --> 01:19:57,390
I mean, I know her qualities, but I
couldn't expect Doug to see them.

1357
01:19:58,379 --> 01:19:59,820
Ronnie, I don't want to leave.

1358
01:20:00,020 --> 01:20:05,640
I said you didn't have to. I hate Rose.
She's fat and stupid and she talks too

1359
01:20:05,640 --> 01:20:09,580
much and I hate all her boyfriends. They
all have beards.

1360
01:20:09,840 --> 01:20:13,000
Oh, do cry if you want to. It's all
right.

1361
01:20:13,520 --> 01:20:14,520
Go ahead.

1362
01:20:17,380 --> 01:20:19,580
Oh, it's absurd. Don't be silly.

1363
01:20:20,440 --> 01:20:21,440
What?

1364
01:20:22,780 --> 01:20:24,930
We went up into the mountain. this
morning.

1365
01:20:25,350 --> 01:20:28,290
You can't imagine how beautiful it is.

1366
01:20:29,610 --> 01:20:33,090
If you aren't the most ridiculous,
childish oaf I've ever seen.

1367
01:20:34,070 --> 01:20:35,070
Why is that?

1368
01:20:35,430 --> 01:20:36,710
Penny's in there hysterical.

1369
01:20:36,950 --> 01:20:40,410
She tells me you made a dumb floppy pass
at her in the garage yesterday

1370
01:20:40,410 --> 01:20:44,950
afternoon. If you aren't an ass to begin
with for thinking she wouldn't come

1371
01:20:44,950 --> 01:20:47,330
immediately to me like a shocked virgin
and tell me.

1372
01:20:48,730 --> 01:20:49,730
Confess to me.

1373
01:20:52,910 --> 01:20:54,590
I can't believe you did something like
that.

1374
01:20:56,350 --> 01:20:59,370
I hope you don't delude yourself into
thinking she liked it.

1375
01:20:59,950 --> 01:21:02,750
She wants to leave is what she's
thinking. She wants to go live with

1376
01:21:02,750 --> 01:21:05,010
Rose. I told her it was stupid.

1377
01:21:06,170 --> 01:21:11,130
If you don't know better than to upset a
girl like that, I swear to God, Doug, if

1378
01:21:11,130 --> 01:21:13,590
it's true, you ought to be ashamed of
yourself.

1379
01:21:17,150 --> 01:21:20,950
I left Nebraska because...

1380
01:21:22,120 --> 01:21:28,720
I had to. I left to come out here to the
promised land because I had to.

1381
01:21:29,980 --> 01:21:31,320
And this is the state I'm in.

1382
01:21:32,540 --> 01:21:33,540
California.

1383
01:21:35,680 --> 01:21:40,260
So much is true here. So much is open.
So much is honest.

1384
01:21:42,120 --> 01:21:46,660
And so much is impossible to admit.

1385
01:21:49,400 --> 01:21:50,400
Even...

1386
01:21:56,910 --> 01:21:59,970
Even of what I know is there.

1387
01:22:01,170 --> 01:22:03,670
What I realize is there.

1388
01:22:06,770 --> 01:22:07,770
In this state.

1389
01:22:09,150 --> 01:22:10,750
It's a good enough state to be in.

1390
01:22:11,410 --> 01:22:13,330
You know, you hardly even enter my mind.

1391
01:22:15,050 --> 01:22:17,370
I had quite a little world going for me
there.

1392
01:22:17,670 --> 01:22:22,190
People are always entering people's
minds at inopportune times. Walk right

1393
01:22:22,190 --> 01:22:24,530
in, sit right down.

1394
01:22:25,230 --> 01:22:27,270
Daddy, let your hair hang down.

1395
01:22:28,930 --> 01:22:30,970
What do you want?

1396
01:22:31,470 --> 01:22:32,870
I don't even know.

1397
01:22:35,870 --> 01:22:37,990
I liked Doug.

1398
01:22:40,290 --> 01:22:43,150
Really, I had never had a father that I
remembered.

1399
01:22:43,350 --> 01:22:44,530
I know, Penny.

1400
01:22:46,430 --> 01:22:47,870
I didn't want to leave.

1401
01:22:49,650 --> 01:22:52,170
You didn't have to leave, Penny, my God.

1402
01:22:53,090 --> 01:22:55,170
The sky didn't fall in, Henny Penny.

1403
01:22:56,770 --> 01:22:57,770
What will he do?

1404
01:23:00,090 --> 01:23:03,210
I can't look him in the face, Ronnie.

1405
01:23:04,050 --> 01:23:05,750
It's impossible to take seriously.

1406
01:23:06,950 --> 01:23:08,810
It's an insult to me, for one thing.

1407
01:23:09,150 --> 01:23:11,750
Which, of course, Penny couldn't know,
but I'd expect you to see that.

1408
01:23:12,490 --> 01:23:15,170
I swear to God, Doug, you ought to be
ashamed of yourself.

1409
01:23:15,710 --> 01:23:19,210
I know I am for you if you're not, or I
wouldn't be. Oh, come on, Doug, so you

1410
01:23:19,210 --> 01:23:21,930
tried to sneak a quick... Put my arm
around her, give her a squeeze.

1411
01:23:22,570 --> 01:23:23,710
She's never had a family.

1412
01:23:24,490 --> 01:23:29,590
Her life is... Not another night under
my house.

1413
01:23:30,590 --> 01:23:34,030
That bitch, if she thinks she can choose
me... Alan,

1414
01:23:35,630 --> 01:23:36,630
I want to talk with you.

1415
01:23:36,910 --> 01:23:39,410
Now, this isn't something I want to
spread around, but I don't think you're

1416
01:23:39,410 --> 01:23:40,410
going to be spreading it.

1417
01:23:40,550 --> 01:23:42,150
I don't want to see her face here again.

1418
01:23:42,710 --> 01:23:45,990
She can go to Rose. She can go to hell
for all I care. She is not going to

1419
01:23:45,990 --> 01:23:48,730
spend another night under my roof. Doug,
it doesn't matter. Of course it doesn't.

1420
01:23:48,730 --> 01:23:50,270
Why the hell it doesn't matter? It
matters!

1421
01:23:51,500 --> 01:23:53,280
He tried to show affection for someone.

1422
01:23:54,520 --> 01:23:55,720
I never touched her.

1423
01:23:56,980 --> 01:23:58,020
I didn't go near her.

1424
01:23:58,420 --> 01:23:59,780
What is she trying to pull, huh?

1425
01:24:01,000 --> 01:24:04,500
And by God, if you believe it, you can
go to hell too, for all I care.

1426
01:24:04,740 --> 01:24:08,720
Well, I won't have it. I won't have it,
by God. I didn't want to cause anything.

1427
01:24:08,780 --> 01:24:10,040
Why did you tell him?

1428
01:24:11,320 --> 01:24:12,259
Unleave it.

1429
01:24:12,260 --> 01:24:15,640
Whole bunch can clear out right now, for
all I care. They can get out now.

1430
01:24:15,860 --> 01:24:16,860
Why did you tell him?

1431
01:24:17,740 --> 01:24:20,060
I didn't say you did. I said Penny said
you did.

1432
01:24:20,640 --> 01:24:21,640
I think it's funny.

1433
01:24:22,220 --> 01:24:24,440
There's nothing to get upset about,
Doug. Good God.

1434
01:24:24,820 --> 01:24:26,080
What? Tell him.

1435
01:24:27,380 --> 01:24:28,380
I didn't touch her.

1436
01:24:28,800 --> 01:24:31,060
She says you kissed her all the cheek.
She didn't say any more than that. What

1437
01:24:31,060 --> 01:24:32,060
would be wrong with that?

1438
01:24:32,360 --> 01:24:34,460
A father kissing a daughter? If I had?

1439
01:24:34,900 --> 01:24:38,020
I'm supposed to be her father? She never
had a family. What the hell would be

1440
01:24:38,020 --> 01:24:40,160
wrong with that if I had, which I
didn't, by God?

1441
01:24:40,660 --> 01:24:42,980
It just isn't important. Well, this is.
Alan.

1442
01:24:44,480 --> 01:24:46,180
What? This is important.

1443
01:24:46,820 --> 01:24:48,680
More than that girl, as far as I'm
concerned.

1444
01:24:50,670 --> 01:24:52,930
What's wrong? I haven't missed any work,
if that's what you're worried about.

1445
01:24:52,930 --> 01:24:54,310
Just let me talk, if you will, please,
now.

1446
01:24:54,690 --> 01:24:58,630
I said I'm going to talk now. Doug is
going to talk. I might know something

1447
01:24:58,630 --> 01:24:59,630
for a change.

1448
01:25:01,330 --> 01:25:05,230
He... I don't know. If I had known then
what he was thinking, then perhaps...

1449
01:25:05,230 --> 01:25:06,830
Just look at me when I'm talking to you,
will you?

1450
01:25:07,110 --> 01:25:10,230
You've been avoiding conniving and lying
the whole goddamn time you've been here.

1451
01:25:10,790 --> 01:25:11,870
Now I'm going to talk.

1452
01:25:12,310 --> 01:25:13,750
Doug, it just didn't necessarily... I
said, Penny!

1453
01:25:14,770 --> 01:25:16,470
You stay. You stay right there.

1454
01:25:22,120 --> 01:25:23,160
I'll deal with your lies.

1455
01:25:28,540 --> 01:25:31,000
Jerry tells me that you and Phil have
been sitting out at the cliffs.

1456
01:25:31,920 --> 01:25:33,740
And Phil's sparkling Pontiac.

1457
01:25:34,580 --> 01:25:36,700
Last night, the night before that, the
night before that.

1458
01:25:38,200 --> 01:25:39,300
With Penny and Phil, yes.

1459
01:25:39,540 --> 01:25:42,120
I went into work the following day. That
doesn't interest me.

1460
01:25:42,960 --> 01:25:45,580
I don't care whether you went to work or
not. It's your job. You can get fired

1461
01:25:45,580 --> 01:25:50,080
from it if you like. I don't care. Is
it... Is it true?

1462
01:25:52,620 --> 01:25:55,280
What? Is what true, Dad? I don't know
what you're getting at. I don't have any

1463
01:25:55,280 --> 01:25:58,380
idea at all what you're getting at. You
bastards stall for time. You know, don't

1464
01:25:58,380 --> 01:25:59,380
you?

1465
01:26:00,260 --> 01:26:01,260
Well, I don't see the point.

1466
01:26:03,100 --> 01:26:04,100
Yeah, you are.

1467
01:26:05,820 --> 01:26:06,820
You are.

1468
01:26:09,260 --> 01:26:10,580
Everything fits. It all fits.

1469
01:26:11,540 --> 01:26:16,120
Suddenly it dawns. Yeah, and all your
pals out at State, they know it too,

1470
01:26:16,180 --> 01:26:17,180
huh?

1471
01:26:18,100 --> 01:26:21,280
He has to have someone to cover. I'm
talking about Phil now.

1472
01:26:21,820 --> 01:26:23,520
And you know goddamn well what I'm
saying.

1473
01:26:24,160 --> 01:26:26,640
He has to have someone cover up for him.

1474
01:26:27,560 --> 01:26:31,100
He can't spend all of his time with the
sailors from the queer bars downtown.

1475
01:26:31,780 --> 01:26:33,800
Everybody else is too wise to fool.

1476
01:26:35,060 --> 01:26:36,840
Now, Penny, she won't ask questions.

1477
01:26:37,300 --> 01:26:38,840
She has to take what she gets.

1478
01:26:39,680 --> 01:26:41,500
And she deserves what she takes.

1479
01:26:42,160 --> 01:26:45,480
Now, she's the cover-up for some rich
queer, and she's too stupid to ask

1480
01:26:45,480 --> 01:26:48,440
questions. And I feel sorry for the
lying bitch if she's that stupid.

1481
01:26:48,820 --> 01:26:50,080
But you're not dumb.

1482
01:26:52,140 --> 01:26:54,720
I thought maybe you had a physical
problem or something.

1483
01:26:56,100 --> 01:26:57,440
I should have been wise, man.

1484
01:26:59,420 --> 01:27:02,280
Sure must be easy for you, huh? Going
out with her and Phil. What are you

1485
01:27:02,280 --> 01:27:03,620
doing? Holding hands behind her back?

1486
01:27:05,160 --> 01:27:06,820
Why? That's not true.

1487
01:27:07,080 --> 01:27:08,080
Then what are you doing?

1488
01:27:08,200 --> 01:27:09,200
What are you saying?

1489
01:27:09,940 --> 01:27:11,460
I'm saying you're through in this house.

1490
01:27:12,080 --> 01:27:15,400
Not with my kids. You're not going to
make sissies out of my two boys. You're

1491
01:27:15,400 --> 01:27:17,780
not going to breathe the air in my
house. Not anymore.

1492
01:27:19,080 --> 01:27:20,740
That's a lie.

1493
01:27:21,390 --> 01:27:25,070
Penny knows better, and Jerry... Penny
knows goddamn well it's true. Look at

1494
01:27:25,070 --> 01:27:26,190
her. Look at her!

1495
01:27:26,970 --> 01:27:30,350
Ask her if he has once tried to lay her
or even thought about it. Hell, ask

1496
01:27:30,350 --> 01:27:34,070
Carol. Carol knows it. Ronnie knows it.
Everybody in the goddamn county knows

1497
01:27:34,070 --> 01:27:38,250
it. Everybody's so goddamn afraid of her
dissolution, little Penny's feelings.

1498
01:27:38,770 --> 01:27:40,430
She lives in some kind of dream world.

1499
01:27:42,690 --> 01:27:46,310
He must be laughing himself silly how he
must have spit on her. He sure knows a

1500
01:27:46,310 --> 01:27:47,350
good thing when he sees it, huh?

1501
01:27:50,480 --> 01:27:51,480
Ask Carol.

1502
01:27:56,960 --> 01:28:01,000
Well, what if it is true? I mean, what
do you mean by saying it? What do you

1503
01:28:01,000 --> 01:28:02,400
mean by saying that? Not in my house.

1504
01:28:06,600 --> 01:28:10,540
He never touched me. I don't know why
you can't leave my sex interest alone or

1505
01:28:10,540 --> 01:28:11,438
to myself.

1506
01:28:11,440 --> 01:28:14,760
I intend to protect my own. I'm not
going to have it. I can't take this.

1507
01:28:14,940 --> 01:28:16,920
What do you mean? What are you doing?
Get out of here.

1508
01:28:17,680 --> 01:28:21,060
Go back to where you came from. We don't
need you here. It's been confusing ever

1509
01:28:21,060 --> 01:28:24,440
since you got here. You take your
invitation, leather suitcase, your

1510
01:28:24,440 --> 01:28:28,100
record player, every other goddamn thing
you've touched in this house and get

1511
01:28:28,100 --> 01:28:29,100
out.

1512
01:28:29,440 --> 01:28:34,600
Goddamn you. I'm going to say one thing.
Because you're lying.

1513
01:28:35,060 --> 01:28:39,240
And you know you are. I don't know why,
but you are. And I'm not good at this.

1514
01:28:39,420 --> 01:28:40,580
I'm not good at it either.

1515
01:28:46,990 --> 01:28:50,450
know what you are you're nothing did all
your lies prove that you know you think

1516
01:28:50,450 --> 01:28:55,690
the best is none too bad get up and get
out of here murderer murderer murderer

1517
01:28:55,690 --> 01:29:02,610
i had a sister and you killed

1518
01:29:02,610 --> 01:29:06,690
you killed your own daughter trying to
be a man that's a lie if that's what you

1519
01:29:06,690 --> 01:29:12,110
want to be like then i may have that
satisfaction no you killed her you

1520
01:29:12,110 --> 01:29:13,110
killed her

1521
01:29:14,120 --> 01:29:17,880
Don't say that stuff to me. You can't
say that to me. You don't know what I

1522
01:29:17,880 --> 01:29:22,140
went through. It wasn't my fault that
she fell in love with her. She was born

1523
01:29:22,140 --> 01:29:27,480
a bloody dead man. She doesn't know
anything about it. Not even human.

1524
01:29:27,700 --> 01:29:28,700
Shut up.

1525
01:29:28,880 --> 01:29:29,880
Shut up.

1526
01:29:32,560 --> 01:29:35,360
Pack your bag and get out of here. I
don't care where you go. I don't want to

1527
01:29:35,360 --> 01:29:37,560
see your face here anymore. Just get
out. Get out.

1528
01:31:32,780 --> 01:31:34,860
that you'd had a sister who'd been born
dead, Alan.

1529
01:31:37,800 --> 01:31:38,880
I'm very sorry.

1530
01:31:42,400 --> 01:31:43,880
I don't know what to say.

1531
01:31:46,880 --> 01:31:50,340
Oh, I shouldn't have said anything.

1532
01:31:50,660 --> 01:31:57,500
I have... What am I... What am I going
to do, Ronnie? Nothing

1533
01:31:57,500 --> 01:31:58,540
he said is true.

1534
01:31:59,340 --> 01:32:04,520
I can't leave you and Jack. What am I
supposed to do? What am I supposed to

1535
01:32:04,520 --> 01:32:05,499
do?

1536
01:32:05,500 --> 01:32:07,700
Well, I think you'd better go.

1537
01:32:08,120 --> 01:32:09,120
Ronnie.

1538
01:32:09,300 --> 01:32:11,820
I don't want to talk to you, Doug.

1539
01:32:12,040 --> 01:32:16,780
My God, you can't. I just want to lie
down. You can't separate a kid from his

1540
01:32:16,780 --> 01:32:18,080
father. Where's Jerry?

1541
01:32:19,520 --> 01:32:20,520
Outside.

1542
01:32:21,040 --> 01:32:22,580
Are you awake?

1543
01:32:22,820 --> 01:32:24,140
I just want to lie down.

1544
01:32:24,540 --> 01:32:25,540
Good night.

1545
01:32:25,620 --> 01:32:26,980
Ronnie, baby, what could I do?

1546
01:32:27,440 --> 01:32:28,440
Nothing,

1547
01:32:29,060 --> 01:32:30,780
Doug. After this long time. It's all
right.

1548
01:32:31,670 --> 01:32:34,070
Everything's going to be all right, even
after this time. You have to go.

1549
01:32:35,570 --> 01:32:36,970
Yeah, I will.

1550
01:32:37,850 --> 01:32:40,950
Really, really, forget it. It'll all be
over. We'll be better off running.

1551
01:32:41,910 --> 01:32:42,889
Sure, Doug.

1552
01:32:42,890 --> 01:32:44,110
I just want you to understand.

1553
01:32:44,630 --> 01:32:45,770
I don't want to think about it.

1554
01:32:46,110 --> 01:32:47,810
Alan, Alan, Alan.

1555
01:32:49,310 --> 01:32:51,650
Alan, I want you to know all those
years. I know, Dad.

1556
01:32:52,650 --> 01:32:54,930
Oh, God, Carol.

1557
01:32:55,650 --> 01:32:57,450
I've heard a lot about her. It's all
right, baby.

1558
01:32:58,510 --> 01:32:59,510
Nothing matters.

1559
01:32:59,800 --> 01:33:02,440
I had quite a little work. I don't want
you to leave. We just got here.

1560
01:33:02,940 --> 01:33:03,940
It's okay, baby.

1561
01:33:04,440 --> 01:33:05,880
Really, don't. I'll cry.

1562
01:33:07,060 --> 01:33:10,800
Sit right down. It's good to remember
that somebody said that.

1563
01:33:11,940 --> 01:33:13,680
All those years I wanted to help.

1564
01:33:14,140 --> 01:33:17,560
I just want you to understand, Alan.
What was I supposed to do, Alan?

1565
01:33:18,160 --> 01:33:19,540
Please, take me with you then.

1566
01:33:22,840 --> 01:33:23,840
I will, baby.

1567
01:33:25,680 --> 01:33:26,780
It's okay, Jack, really.

1568
01:33:27,820 --> 01:33:28,840
You're eight years old.

1569
01:33:30,100 --> 01:33:31,480
You're a little white orangutan.

1570
01:33:32,940 --> 01:33:34,000
Hug me, by God.

1571
01:33:34,440 --> 01:33:36,540
Billy, though, let me go with you, Alan.
Can I?

1572
01:33:36,940 --> 01:33:38,560
Alan? You will, Jack.

1573
01:33:39,060 --> 01:33:40,400
Alan? I promise.

1574
01:33:48,740 --> 01:33:49,740
Light.